SPICE OF EVERYTHING

one average girl. lots in her mind. and this is her diary.

[quotemadness]

“Stop waiting for Friday, for summer, for someone to fall in love with you, for life. Happiness is achieved when you stop waiting for it and make the most of the moment you are in now.”

— Unknown

[earlgreyraven]

[qvotable]

“How was it possible to miss something you no longer wanted?”

— Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie

[bnmxfld]

“Alone or not, you gotta walk forward.”

— Cecelia Ahern

[syxkiwin]

I like you.. but I promise to run away from you.

I like you since we were 17 but I decided to not say it to you. I was afraid of the rejection, the awkwardness. We shared the same mutuals, the same circle of friends, and I had been liking you from distance. And that’s why, I’m afraid to be truthful to you because I had been liking to see you grow from afar.

Then, when we were 26, I decided to make a move on you. No longer thinking of the fear. I mean, fuck it, I’m growing old and at least with no regrets.

But… deep down, I felt you don’t look at me the same way as I look at you. You don’t care for me like I care for you. You don’t worry about my wellbeing like I worried for you.

and for that, when we meet in August, I’ll tell you my hearts out. and the next day, I promise to run away from you, as far as I could.

…because I’m that girl that only able to love you from afar. I accepted the fact I’m not what you wanted, what you needed. However, I still wish you the best because that’s what you deserve.

and I hope there will be a person for you that cried, worried, cared and bleed for you as much as I can do.

I promise, I run far.

[naturaekos]

“Your opinion is not my reality.”

—

[qvotable]

“As time goes on, you’ll understand. What lasts, lasts; what doesn’t, doesn’t. Time solves most things. And what time can’t solve, you have to solve yourself.”

— Haruki Murakami

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“Be such a beautiful soul that people crave your vibes.”

— Unknown

[syxkiwin]

oh god, it’s been so long not writing in tumblr.

OHHHH I MISS YOUUUUU TUMBLR COMMUNITYYYYYYYYYYYY ❤️❤️❤️

[syxkiwin]

I fell in love again...

I fell in love again but i think that it wasn’t serious. I was not expecting him to stay for a long time because I learnt, previously, no matter how long you know somebody, feelings change. It fades. That person changed me. I am suppose to be happy with my changes right?

Am I leading myself with destruction? Am I opening up for another person to throw me out the window unexpectedly? Is having a comfortable vibe with someone is a mistake? Am I ruining myself again?

Honestly, love is not what I felt. It’s more like feeling complete when he’s around. And with that, how many hell he gives, I accepted it. I became more selfless. Now, I’m afraid I’ll be ruining myself.

despite that, I’m thankful, because he make me feel things again. 

.... even if it’s temporary.

[syxkiwin]

NEW WEBSITE!

OMGGGG,

I finally do a website of my own! do visit my website at wix,com.

Don’t forget to log on to https://syakirinmtishere.wixsite.com/spicesofeverything for more info and updates!

[syxkiwin]

to all the girls out there, be you, do you, no matter what trash people had put you into. trashes can be thrown away but not your personality. ☺️💕 #notetoself📝 (at Universiti Tenaga Nasional, Kampus Sultan Haji Ahmad Shah)

[syxkiwin]

#todaysdetails . wearing my denim jeans and blended my army green dress @hm top with my favorite chiffon long abaya cardigan. donning the shawl by @cottonon_my TOTALLY MY FAV! it's comfy and flattering with colour of my cardi. . Please get yourself in @cottonon_my to see more shawls collection & not to forget, if there's promotion going on, these shawls are up for grab with PWP for only RM15! 😱😱😱 (at Universiti Tenaga Nasional, Kampus Sultan Haji Ahmad Shah)

[queenstravelingdarling]

Martin Luther King Jr speech that they will NEVER quote.

[purplelittlemermaid]

Boy..

[nighttmoth]

[syxkiwin]

the only pan that i could get “cooked” for.

[wordsnquotes]

fýrgebræc

(noun) An Old English word, fýrgebræc is defined as the distinct crackling and breaking noise blazing fire makes. Oftentimes this sound connotes a pleasant sensation, which makes humanity both fond and fearful of the beauty of fire.  (via wordsnquotes)

[kotak-nasi]

Aku takmenjanjikan aku adalah seseorang yang manis, bahwa denganku kamu akan selalu merasa senang, jauh dari kecewa. Tapi, boleh jika ingin kamu catat ini, jika aku salah, maaf bukan sesuatu yang berat aku ucapkan, bahwa salah paham takkan berat aku jelaskan, aku luruskan.

(via kotak-nasi)