[sza30]

It’s 2:52 a.m. and you just left.

There’s only one thing I’m thinking about.

I smile.

I knew you’ve been craving my body for weeks.

Your body is weak because I’ve been giving you the run around and it felt good to tease you.

but tonight I felt like being bad.

The things you say underneath your breath is what my ears want to hear at this time of night.

When you grab my hips from behind,

Then you put my legs together,

Then you you slide inside.

Slowly.

Your breath behind my ear while you going inside me and kissing my shoulder is what I was craving.

We started in the living-room but I needed more space.

I grab you by your hoodie as we walk down the hall.

The hall to a dungeon where I was going to get my way with you.

Punishing you for being my guilty pleasure.

I get what I want from you.

I make you speak.

You beg to bend me over and spread my lips open to have your moment.

You beg me saying you need me in your mouth between my legs like a drink in a desert.

You beg.

Your tongue meets my clit and I can’t help but feel like me dripping all over your face.

I beg.

I beg you to stop and go back inside me.

I beg to ride you.

I love to ride you

When I hold you down and see you under my control, I get wet enough to drown you.

He tells me he wants to cum with me.

Both of our souls connect in the highest ways where our body release from the intense fucking we’re doing.

Because we don’t make love.

We don’t kiss.

We don’t cuddle.

We don’t pretend.

I dismiss him like a stranger but he’s okay with that.

As long as I make time to let him devote him self to me.

Even if only for a moment he will always come back.

See you next time he said a as he walks away.

It’s 2:52 a.m. and there’s only one thing I’m thinking about.

I hope there’s food in the fridge.

Only one thing I’m thinking about by SZA edited by G.K.Keaton

@sazetfigueroa @gdotkeaton

[sza30]

To my mother

Don’t come crying over my dead body

I was never you child

I was never your worried

I was never you reason to wake up and smile

I was your unwanted fat kid

The one you couldn’t relate to

The one you wish to be like you but I was more of the mistake then anything

I was never your dream daughter

The burden of me was the worst part of it

I die knowing I live feeling unwanted

I was alway trying to win your love when I should of have it all along

I lived knowing the feeling of feeling alone

I lived knowing how you could never loved me like I wish you could

Now I’m gone

And I bet you won’t even cry

You won’t even wish me back

You won’t ask god why

You won’t ask for me

You won’t say I love you just like you didn’t when I was breathing

Don’t say good bye

Don’t cry me

Or kissing me

Don’t

You should of when I need it you

When I was hurting

When I was lost

When I was in pain

In a prison of my own thought

You should of know

I been dreaming of this day

Since I was 10

How I would take my life

It was like my destination

Now I’m gone

Wish you would of love me like I want it to

Just maybe

Just maybe .....

[sza30]

The Mirror show

[poeticstories]

“We are the generation of the irrevocably broken, of the dead but walking, of the meticulously hidden and the beautifully lost. We are the generation of popping pills in place of life, of accidental overdoses and mixed up meds, of drinking alone to quench the pain. We are the generation of drugs coursing through our veins to make the sadness go away, of needles and shot glasses, of panic attacks every night. We are the generation of whispers behind palms, of fake smiles to hide the judgement, of hateful and the lonely, of self loathing and heartbreak. We are the generation of the future.”

— A.Y. (via relatable-writings)

[sza30]

I loved you even in the dark ...

[sza30]

To my mother

Don’t come crying over my dead body

I was never you child

I was never your worried

I was never you reason to wake up and smile

I was your unwanted fat kid

The one you couldn’t relate to

The one you wish to be like you but I was more of the mistake then anything

I was never your dream daughter

The burden of me was the worst part of it

I die knowing I live feeling unwanted

I was alway trying to win your love when I should of have it all along

I lived knowing the feeling of feeling alone

I lived knowing how you could never loved me like I wish you could

Now I’m gone

And I bet you won’t even cry

You won’t even wish me back

You won’t ask god why

You won’t ask for me

You won’t say I love you just like you didn’t when I was breathing

Don’t say good bye

Don’t cry me

Or kissing me

Don’t

You should of when I need it you

When I was hurting

When I was lost

When I was in pain

In a prison of my own thought

You should of know

I been dreaming of this day

Since I was 10

How I would take my life

It was like my destination

Now I’m gone

Wish you would of love me like I want it to

Just maybe

Just maybe .....

[sza30]

PTSD

Define my mornings

My between Washing dishes leads to crying in the bathroom floor trying to catch my breath

Where bagging noise bring back memories like a tittle waves

Where I spend my thought and my emotions fighting for a places that don’t belong to them like my ex fight me for me where I’m not even there anymore

PTSD

Most people in my life don’t know it defines me

They don’t know I have days that I ignored my own because of the grey clouds that hover over me won’t seem to move

They like it here

PTSD

A gift he left me

Something that I can’t return back

Medicine

I swallowed them to feel peace

Or to have one day without tears falling down my puffy face for the tears that seem to be a familiar places to fall down to 

PTSD a unfamiliar feel of the pass hunting me ...

I don’t know anymore

I wonder if this nightmare could be my dream

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[sza30]

Finding

I found the light

That’s was always creeping through the cracks of the walls that I have built around me

I found forgiveness

A gift god gave me that allowed me to cut the lines that kept me down from the people that had never said sorry for the scars that they left in me

I found my motherhood

Where before I put my self to a limited of thinking that I could love my children unconditionally but never in a million year I would of allow them to love me the same

I found a new me

Where a mans love is never need it but is always welcome to the one that love me naked of the mask that I put on for the sake of my broken heart to be open again

I found love

For me the one love that I should of know all along like the pawns of my hand that tell the story’s throw the lines of where life has taken me

Finding the moments that it seem like it would never be found is breath taking

Like your lungs thank you

Like your heart finally say I need this break from the broken pieces you never seem to care to put together again

I’m taking the time to view me from afar

From a view of the future of the me that I’m building for me for my children for the man that I would love to walk down on our wedding day and see happiness on his eyes

I found it

I’m working on it

Me will thank me later

[sza30]

It’s 2:52 a.m. and you just left.

There’s only one thing I’m thinking about.

I smile.

I knew you’ve been craving my body for weeks.

Your body is weak because I’ve been giving you the run around and it felt good to tease you.

but tonight I felt like being bad.

The things you say underneath your breath is what my ears want to hear at this time of night.

When you grab my hips from behind,

Then you put my legs together,

Then you you slide inside.

Slowly.

Your breath behind my ear while you going inside me and kissing my shoulder is what I was craving.

We started in the living-room but I needed more space.

I grab you by your hoodie as we walk down the hall.

The hall to a dungeon where I was going to get my way with you.

Punishing you for being my guilty pleasure.

I get what I want from you.

I make you speak.

You beg to bend me over and spread my lips open to have your moment.

You beg me saying you need me in your mouth between my legs like a drink in a desert.

You beg.

Your tongue meets my clit and I can’t help but feel like me dripping all over your face.

I beg.

I beg you to stop and go back inside me.

I beg to ride you.

I love to ride you

When I hold you down and see you under my control, I get wet enough to drown you.

He tells me he wants to cum with me.

Both of our souls connect in the highest ways where our body release from the intense fucking we’re doing.

Because we don’t make love.

We don’t kiss.

We don’t cuddle.

We don’t pretend.

I dismiss him like a stranger but he’s okay with that.

As long as I make time to let him devote him self to me.

Even if only for a moment he will always come back.

See you next time he said a as he walks away.

It’s 2:52 a.m. and there’s only one thing I’m thinking about.

I hope there’s food in the fridge.

Only one thing I’m thinking about by SZA edited by G.K.Keaton

@sazetfigueroa @gdotkeaton

[sza30]

It’s 2:52 a.m. and you just left.

There’s only one thing I’m thinking about.

I smile.

I knew you’ve been craving my body for weeks.

Your body is weak because I’ve been giving you the run around and it felt good to tease you.

but tonight I felt like being bad.

The things you say underneath your breath is what my ears want to hear at this time of night.

When you grab my hips from behind,

Then you put my legs together,

Then you you slide inside.

Slowly.

Your breath behind my ear while you going inside me and kissing my shoulder is what I was craving.

We started in the living-room but I needed more space.

I grab you by your hoodie as we walk down the hall.

The hall to a dungeon where I was going to get my way with you.

Punishing you for being my guilty pleasure.

I get what I want from you.

I make you speak.

You beg to bend me over and spread my lips open to have your moment.

You beg me saying you need me in your mouth between my legs like a drink in a desert.

You beg.

Your tongue meets my clit and I can’t help but feel like me dripping all over your face.

I beg.

I beg you to stop and go back inside me.

I beg to ride you.

I love to ride you

When I hold you down and see you under my control, I get wet enough to drown you.

He tells me he wants to cum with me.

Both of our souls connect in the highest ways where our body release from the intense fucking we’re doing.

Because we don’t make love.

We don’t kiss.

We don’t cuddle.

We don’t pretend.

I dismiss him like a stranger but he’s okay with that.

As long as I make time to let him devote him self to me.

Even if only for a moment he will always come back.

See you next time he said a as he walks away.

It’s 2:52 a.m. and there’s only one thing I’m thinking about.

I hope there’s food in the fridge.

Only one thing I’m thinking about by SZA edited by G.K.Keaton

@sazetfigueroa @gdotkeaton

[bnmxfld]

“We ruined ourselves- I have never honestly thought that we ruined each other.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald

[buttonpoetry]

“I most always smile out of spite. I sometimes stay alive out of spite.”

— Dave Harris, from Patricide 

[sza30]

Dear god I cry In my room While the kids are asleep After a hard day I sit in the dark Confused Defeated Alone Heartbroken Ready to give up I cry Asking god the Why me’s What plans do you have for me god? I hope is worth it I hope is all my happiness My dreams My safe place My joy My courage My happy ending is that plan I hope that when you see my story And you see My days that I don’t want to wake up My days where I plan out to take my life My days where another of your children use me as there personal punching bag My days where I lost my baby’s from my belly taking a part of me every time with them My days where I felt hopeless Defeated Ashamed Destroy I hope seen my story will make it all worth it That you will write the best ending yet I cry till then Hoping this tears will comfort me When I don’t have no one to hold me I cry Because the ache are to much to bare I cry Because that emptiness is so empty that the echo surround my 4 walls of my mind I cry Not knowing if I will have any cry’s left after so many I have done in this 30 years of life My cry’s are silent That’s the worst cry Holding on to the screams The punches the anger Then When I’m done I smile my happy face is on And the kids are awake Reality -Sazet Figueroa

[sza30]

Distance never kept me away from the things I want Distance is just that Miles , hours, days That’s all I see Distance is my love I love the trips The drive the new places the people The courage that I take To take that one step to my new adventure I found me in that distance I found love I found the meaning of life it self once Distance for some is the breaking point Is where they stop looking Where they willing to give up on there dreams For something that is near I don’t like near I don’t like the box that keeps me in How one step forward for distances is too much so they take 4 back to there comfort zone I’m willing to risk it To put all or none in my distance The horizon is my place All 4 corner of the earth is my sanctuary Where I find my self on the line of the what if’s and the fuck it ! I’m a black bird with no limitations The distance is my destiny Till I reach the unreachable My distance My companion..... -Sazet Figueroa

[sza30]

Conversation

The conversation that our skin have are more then most understand

The intertwined between our wants and the sheets are the one thing that keeps us from the truth

The fact that we hesitate to love each other yet never stop us from making love

Is impeccable

We separated real life when we are in together

Yet our real life never seem to be far from rudely interrupting our conversation

The want and need are the uncut that I wish somehow end it into a partnership

Can I tell you

Our energy is connected like the Milky Way and the galaxy

Maybe we will end up in a black hole

Maybe passing through it will have us in the same space

The love will finally meet the sex at same game

The conversation will be endless like time

Me

You

Can we converse

-Sazet Figueroa

[sza30]

Today im going through it . My mind is filled with dark thoughts. My eyes won’t stop leaking from the pain my heart feels . I lay in bed to wonder. The world is so cruel even when all you want to give back is happiness. It takes more then give. I wonder those this matter . My words my attempt in life . Is it worth the giving a damn ? Those it ....

-Sazet Figueroa