COMING UP NEXT✦ Death without a graveyard #Doctor!Heeseung x Medical scientist/zombie!fem!reader
**✧˚. ↷ your entire neighborhood, no- your entire country witnessed a huge zombie outbreak. The only thing that bothers you is how you are still alive and no zombie comes to bite you. Are you even alive? With your family missing, you set out in search of them and begin on the journey which will give you your answers.
Because if you aren't a zombie, why do you want to eat humans? And if you are a zombie then why are you walking just fine unlike other zombies?
I think many of you guys have realized since I'm just never active on here anymore. But I've fell out of love with fic writing on here. I'm still gonna stick around Tumblr but just won't be writing so I'm deactivating. If you want to keep in contact please follow @loveyyongbok !!
thanks for thinking of me genie!! i really loved this one :>
HYUNJIN KEEPS SHOWING UP 😭 i know it’s probably because our birthdays are really close or something?? but i had to cheat again a little because otherwise every picture would have been of him or a screenshot from little women. idk why little women popped up but i love that movie (and book) too.
TAGGING: @szeongrimin @dreamescapeswriting @lix-ables @tyungun @noramoons @aura-mp3 @bruh-changbin + anyone else who wants to do it 🤍
Thankyou for tagging me wifey @petrichor-han, I couldn't not do this one💗
🍄type in your birth date and month and core aesthetic on pinterest and post first 9 photos as a moodboard!
When the birthdate is your ult group and ur birth month resembles the name of that group's member, a moodboard like this takes birth LOL (screaming how this moodboard has wonwoo AAAAA)
Hey there muffin! I gave an exam tdy yesss feeling so frcking good haha good luck on yo exams mate! (Also happy Diwali! why aren't u having any holids tho?)
WAIT OMFG U WERE THE ENHYPEN FALLING DOWN THE STAIRS ANON?!?!OMF I'm glad u like it 🥺
I've been ok, just busy with a bunch of things hahahahaha I have exams and a dance which isn't that much but these r kind of like a unofficial mock exam to prepare us for the mocks so like ye we're going pretty hard ehm
WBU TEAH HRU glad to know I'm still kel muffin 😼
YES HAHA IT WAS ME (IDK I WAS HIGH AT THAT TIME💀👍) BUT I DIDNT EXPECT IT WOULD TURN OUT SO WELL 😳🤌
Wow that sounds rough 😕 but ik u will ace it, you have my support 💪😼 and don't forget to take breaks once in a while💖
I'm caught up in mock exams as well *sigh* I can't just seem to escape this :") anyways manifesting that we both slay 🤩 and you'll forever be the iconic kel muffin 🙈
how you got ONE group under your name and you can't even put out a statement to clear obviously false rumours. Like everytime shit goes down, Belift are nowhere to be found and engenes have to run to twitter to do damage control - which is basically belifts WHOLE JOB in the first place
lol school isn’t being a bitch cuz I’m on SUMMER BREAK RN!!!!!!!! Yayyyyy!!! however I have surgery in like 2.5 hrs so that’s fun!! I’ve honestly been ok tho. I just missed you a lot 🫶🏾🫶🏾
Summer break in August? Woah now I wanna know the season month patterns in US!! But I'm so happy for you yayy 🥳🥳🥳
Wait it's my first seeing someone say surgery is fun??? Hello faith stop ur being sarcastic aren't you 😭😭😭 hope it goes well love 💕 like idk the level of severity but I hope it all turns out well,, also I'm here so u can vent to me anytime💗💗💗
no fucking way you deleted your whole blog teah😭😭😭😭!! anyways I MISSED U SO MUCH OMG HOW ARE YOU BBY??????????
FAITH MY LOVE I REALLY MISSED U TOO 😭😭😭 I deleted the blog like "Ah yeah I press this button, now my blog's gone.. cool" lmao that was like 3 days prior to my entrance exam and after a week I actually regretted a little..yeah.. just a little 🥲 before realization hit me how I underestimated my works and the growth I've witnessed.. fuck 😭
Anygays How are you doing faith? Is school still being a bitch? And what are you upto these days, tell me I wanna catch up💗💗
GENRES ▶ doctor au, superpower au, strangers to lovers
WARNINGS ▶ profanity, mentions of death of a family member and depression.
SYNOPSIS ▶ His beautiful smell is all that got your attention.
You are a budding doctor but there’s more to that. You can smell a person’s depression. The more depressed they were, the more beautiful was their scent, which led your chance encounter to him, a person with the best fragrance tingling your nose.
WORD COUNT ▶ 5.3 k
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“DAMN IT!” You rustled through the bundle of papers kept on the table. 1:36 AM, you looked at your wrist watch.
“I can’t find the report, what am I supposed to do now“, you knew you've fucked it up.
“Heard you’ve been looking for this?", a familiar voice came from the door. You turned around to see Soobin leaning on one side of the door waving the report you’ve been searching so frantically in his hand.
“Thank you so much Soobin, I really thought I lost it!“
“I know I know your expression says it all“ , he chuckles.
“He he he laugh to your heart’s content“ , you smiled sarcastically and took the report from his hand and kept inside your bag.
Soobin holds the same position as yours in the hospital. More like, despite being in the same position he holds much more knowledge than you, an ace would be the perfect word to describe him. Though you too were pretty good and competitive in this field to be honest.
He and you have been close friends since you got in junior residency in the hospital, nevertheless he was always present whenever you needed him.
You both got out of the hospital together meeting other fellow doctors standing in the lobby.
“Guys I’m very hungry, should we go to eat something first?“ , you saw Ryujin literally being drained out of energy.
“Sure mate! Let’s go to our usual restaurant, shall we?“, a hint of enthusiasm in Soobin's voice made you all nod your heads in unison and walked to the restaurant together.
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After placing your orders, Dwaehi started to explain what kind of complex operation he witnessed today. “Oh my goodness, seriously that tumor was benign, I swear I’ve never been so damn relieved in my entire life.” A sigh of relief after reminiscing the situation in front of his eyes.
“We sure understand you Dwaehi“, Karina made the remark and nodded her head in sympathy then she turned her face towards Ryujin. “Btw, Ryu, haven’t you applied perfume a bit in excess today?“
“Yeah dude, I also figured out the pleasant smell, what’s the occasion bro? Had a date or something?“, Hyunjin smirked mischievously.
“G-guys no! I just thought today was a great day so I applied some perfume“ , she explained and laughed awkwardly. Only did you know about your best friend's blind date and you also know how badly it went.
Coping mechanism for Ryujin was to fill her stomach which you all were doing now.
“Yeah sure! Y/N how are you even alive sitting just next to her? Isn’t the scent bothering you?“ , asked Dwaehi while stuffing drumsticks in his mouth.
“What? Uh.. my nose is a bit blocked today so I can’t really tell“, you lied.
You lied about the fact that your nose was blocked and you definitely didn’t smell anything strong.
It has always been this way when it came to human body odors, you can only smell certain fragrances when the person is depressed or anxious. The more depressed they were, the more fragrant was their smell.
Like during examinations it has been much more evident, whenever you passed through the corridors filled with people with their faces buried into books or while writing the exams where the whole room fills up with pleasant smells.
Right now, you could get some nice odors here and there but faint enough for your brain to simply ignore.
Also, you kept this as a secret from everyone, even your best friends because you just felt it right that way. No explanations, no expenditure of energy!
After you said that, you could see Ryujin visibly disappointed as if she wore the perfume for you to notice and you failed to do so.
“Oh my, don’t make that face, I bet you must smell really nice as these folks are claiming“ , you laughed and everyone joined into your conversation.
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About a month ago you all went to eat at a place and there was a 1st year intern who took the seat in front of you across the table. You remember his smell was by far the strongest and the best smell you’ve smelled so far.
“Wow you smell really nice", your words were quicker than your ability to realize what you just said, it obviously meant he smelt really good that you couldn’t resist to compliment.
You immediately closed your mouth in realization and to cover up you made excuses , “Uh.. I mean what fragrance do you use?“
“I’m sorry I didn’t wear any fragrance“, the boy, Yang Jungwon said nervously.
“Oh my bad, I think I made a mistake in recognizing, must be someone else’s here“, you said trying to save your embarrassed face.
But you clearly made no mistake, it was his smell and you were still getting it. You immediately felt sorry for him, he must be utterly depressed if he emitted that kind of odor.
“Btw if you ever need someone to open up, you can reach to me“ , you said while trying to sound as normal as you could without raising any awkwardness.
“Um.. sure, will do.. um.. Are you studying psychiatry“, he asked.
“I'm actually pursuing general surgery but I study psychiatry as a hobby you can say.“ you smiled.
“Is that so? You do give off the vibes of a psychiatrist, I’ll surely reach to you if needed“, a smile on his face, a genuine one which hid the darkness inside his soul.
While exiting the hall the Chief doctor summoned you back inside. You told Karina and Ryujin not to wait and head out.
Turns out he came to you on the very next day. He thought you can be trusted and so you gave your best efforts to bring him out of depression. It was hard, but it was all worth it, he no longer had the pain in his eyes or the sadness in his smiles, and so the pleasant odor had subsided completely giving you the sense of victory.
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You were having an Ice Americano while walking through the corridor and suddenly you started to get a ridiculously high amount of pleasant fragrance, much more better than the one you’ve ever witnessed.
You frowned and looked around to look at who might be the person with a such a deadly depressed soul. You saw a new face near the reception at a distance, he seemed to be all good and jolly while talking to others.
"No, must not be him." You felt a vibration in your coat’s pocket. A notification asking all the junior residents to gather in the auditorium hall. Normally you all are summoned there in order to discuss some complex surgery or to introduce someone new.
You turned to go the hall and met Ryujin on the way. “Heard we are having a new doctor in general surgery”, she said while taking a seat next to you. You made an 'O' with your mouth.
There he came with the chief doctor, the person you earlier saw at the reception. He greeted everyone, “Hello, I’m Dr. Park Jongseong, you all can call me Dr. Jay, I am a doctor in general surgery.”
You barely paid attention to what he said as you were still trying to figure out the owner of that beautiful smell, which currently was lingering inside the hall.
“He came from America“, you snapped your head towards the front on hearing that. “What? So he’s an American! That’s so cool“, you heard Karina whispered sitting on your other side.
Yes, you found it cool too since you really have not seen that many doctors from foreign countries.
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"Yes Chief?" You went to him. "Oh Y/N! Here have these papers and go to the chamber next to mine, there you'll find Dr. Jay, please give these to him and also, you along with few other junior and senior residents have been transferred to his team which you all will come to know by tonight." He smiled and handed over the papers to you.
You nodded while returning the same gesture and headed towards the said room.
The moment you opened the door after he answered your knocks to open it, you thought you just entered a whole damn paradise because the smell was too enchanting.
"May I know what are you here for?" his words brought you back to reality.
"Ah! Hello doctor. I'm Lim Y/N, junior resident in general surgery and Chief Han told me to hand over these papers to you."
"Are junior residents this much free in this hospital?" he chuckled.
"Oh so you're Lim Y/N? Chief called me just a while ago and he informed me about you arriving. I think you are also under my team if I remember the list correctly."
"Y-yes I'm there. Uh.. if you want to have a tour around the hospital then you can tell me so."
"Pardon?" You were confused at his words. No, of course you were not free! You had piles of paperwork left and on top of that you had to study for the upcoming exams.
But maybe asking that out of kindness backfired you, maybe.
"What I meant is, there's no need to do so. I'm going with Chief for that purpose. You go and study." Oh so this is what he meant.
You bowed in gratitude and left his room.
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"So you're telling me we're no longer in the same team?" Karina pouted.
"Girl it's just for surgery timings, we are gonna sleep together anyways!"
"Oh god my holy ears!" Soobin turned around while sipping water.
You were baffled at his actions, "Hey you dirty minded seagull! Are you--"
"Stop Y/N stop! Of course I was kidding!!" he laughed and so did the others. You narrowed your eyes at the fact of how he loves to tease you.
Not his fault if he enjoyed watching you get triggered at the slightest of his actions, isn't it?
After you entered your dorm with Ryujin and Karina after having lunch, it struck you about your previous encounter with Jay. That room had the similar kind of scent that you got earlier in the reception area and the hall.
"What do you guys think about Dr. Jay, do you think he's depressed or something?" You asked the girls while opening your laptop to study.
"I don't think so, what gave you that idea?" Ryujin said while flipping on her bed.
"Just because."
"I don't really think so, he looked pretty much doing good, you even told how he spared you to study. I don't think he's a depressed man." Karina commented while applying her facial mask.
"Yeah right? Maybe I'm thinking too much." You turned your head back to your gadget. But the inner you was still thinking who might it be if not him, maybe someone had entered that room before you and the scent was so strong that it was still in the air.
Can that be the case though? If so then it's better you should find out that person before something bad happens.
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"Good morning dr. Jay", you along with other peers greeted him. "Good morning everyone. It's going to be our first day together and we already have a surgery at 10 am today. I'd like to quickly go through your take on this case. Dr. Heeseung, let's begin with you." He smiled and commanded.
So he's kind and a person who likes to be straightforward, no bullshit.
You liked it.
The atmosphere was in scent again and now you were determined to figure out which person over here is the owner of the fragrance.
"Dr. Y/N, please state your opinion." "Oh yes!" and you continued.
After stating your views you were looking at everyone's faces and body movements, more like you were observing them. You found it! The owner of the scent! It's Heeseung.
You decided to follow him after the meeting ended.
After Jay delivered his words and gave out the roles he said, "Okay then let's meet at the OR."
As planned, you walked after Heeseung but something felt strange. The scent started to fade away. But he did look down, you thought and so you decided to ask it.
"Hello doctor." He turned back, "Oh dr. Y/N hello. Do you need anything?"
"Uh well I don't want to sound nosy, I was just asking if everything's alright. Actually during the meeting you looked a bit down."
He raised his eyebrows. "Ah! Did I make it that obvious? Honestly I was upset because my roommate burned my trousers as he forgot to switch off the iron, nothing much." He plastered a smile.
"Oh I see, sorry if it sounded weird." You apologized.
"No no you don't have to feel sorry. Good day then!"
He said and went away.
Well if not Heeseung then who must be the owner? You thought.
Perhaps you actually got an idea pop up in your head, why not follow everyone to find out.
Yeah! Let's do that. You mentally noted.
You started walking around every person observing carefully because several of your peers and seniors were walking in pairs or groups.
"Y/N what are you doing?" You flinched at the sudden voice from behind. You turned back to see Soobin holding some files.
"Well.. nothing." You looked here and there to make it look like you were just goofing around.
"Good then! Looks like you are way too free and I need a hand, can I have yours."
You can't turn down, can you? "Okay." You smiled and joined his side.
While walking to the room he was taking you to, you abruptly stopped on your tracks as soon as that strong pleasant scent hit your nostrils.
"What happened Y/N?" Soobin asked.
"Uh.. You go ahead. I am coming in a moment."
He blinked, "Okay, remember room 308, come over there I'll be waiting."
You nodded and went to your right hand side from where the scent started becoming thicker and evident.
You ended up a little distance away from two people. It was Dr. Jay and Dr. Ningning.
You hid yourself behind the wall waiting for them to part to see which one among them is the one you, rather your nose was searching for.
"Yeah doctor I'll keep that in mind. Also I had a question, are you single?"
You immediately perked up at that word. Why does it matter to you? It doesn't hurt to know right, you mentally clarified.
"Well.. I am single, why?"
"Oh! Then would you like to go on a blind date? My friend is a doctor too of another hospital. She's around your age, her name is Kim Chaehyun. Wait lemme show you her pic-"
"No no please don't. I actually am single because I wish to give myself time and space."
"Oh right! Of course finding a girl won't be an issue for a handsome and successful man like you." Ningning said while nodding and keeping her phone back in her bag.
"Uhm.. you might say so?" Jay grinned.
"Okay then see you around." Ningning waved him goodbye. You thought, "If he doesn't want to be in relationships then I guess it is good, but- BUT? Why do I even care? Get it together Y/N!" You mentally slapped yourself.
As soon as Ningning left the place, you started to follow her.
And turns out, the smell wasn't coming from her.
Weird! "Is it doctor Jay then? But how? He doesn't look like he - wait, so does it mean that I'm losing my powers or something?"
"What powers are you talking about?", Soobin whispered near your ears.
Your soul almost left your body. "Wtf! That literally scared the shit out of me!" You distanced yourself and tried to calm down.
Soobin chuckled at your state. "Why are you so nervous? Were you stalking someone and I caught you red handed?"
You scoffed, "Whatever. And why are you here? Didn't you say you'd be in room 308?"
"Yeah but you were taking too much time to come so I had to come instead. About the stuff you wanted to do, isn't it done yet?", he asked.
"Oh.. Its-its done. Let's go."
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You were slightly in distress ever since you confirmed that Jay was actually the owner of the scent, what pains you more is that how could he act so well and jolly? You could never!
And bigger question is what might he be going through to be so badly rotten inside. You let out a long sigh while keeping your head on your arms on the table.
"Why the long sigh Y/N?" Ryujin asked while munching on her chips.
You turned towards her and asked, "Ryu tell me, if I'm not close with someone and I sense something is wrong with them and I want to help them without sounding nosy, how should I do that?"
"What are you talking about? You've always done that smoothly like last time that intern.. what was his name again? Yang.. Yang-"
"Yang Jungwon?"
"Yeah yeah him! Yang Jungwon. He was a complete stranger yet you very effectively helped him out! Just do like that."
"I would have Ryu but this is a different case. I feel like dr. Jay must be going through something?"
She raised her eyebrows. "What? Him? Why do you think so? Isn't he the one with one of the brightest smiles in the hospital, the idol of all doctors?"
"Sounds like you're having a crush on him!" You narrowed your eyes.
"Crush? I won't call it crush though. It's more like I look up to him."
"That's a good thing I guess?"
"Oh well, back to your question, how about," she paused a bit and looked down at the packet of chips in her hand. She forwarded her packet towards you, "How about offer him to meals, try to get close to him to the point he can open up to you?"
Eureka! You were overjoyed by her suggestion. You immediately pulled her into a hug, "Thankyou so much Ryu my best boyfriend!!"
"Ack get off me! Do you want my dirty hands to to embrace your hair?", she smirked. You at once let her go and started to run your hands through your hair in an attempt to wipe off anything she might have left on it upon which she started to laugh.
"Is this what I get for thanking eh?" You made a 🤷♀️ while throwing your hands in the air.
"If you thank me then don't hug, treat me to a meal!" She winked.
"I'll make sure of that boyfie!" You walked out happily outside your room.
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You inhaled deeply as if it was a way to summon some courage to channel inside you.
"Okay let's do it!" You said and knocked on the door.
"Come in." Voice came from inside. You creaked the door open but oh good lord the scent once again making you feel as if you just got lost in a vast land of flowers with sunrays kissing your skin.
"Y/N?"
"Oh.. yeah.. uh I was saying that have you taken your dinner?"
"Not yet, I was about to go for it. If you have some work then don't worry about my supper just go ahead and ask for it." He smiled and resumed his work.
"No actually I'm here to ask if we could have dinner together?" You secretly had your fingers crossed at the back hoping to get a positive response.
"Why me? Ask your friends!" He smiled.
You swayed your head in a left-right manner, "They've already eaten and I don't have anyone to eat with. It would've been great if I got a companion you know?"
"Ah but I prefer to eat alone. Sorry Y/n."
"That's okay. We don't have to talk with each other, just have your dinner as if you're having it alone. Please doctor?" You emphasized with pleading eyes.
He sighed, "Alright but just today. Make sure to eat with friends next time okay?"
You nodded like a happy puppy on his approval.
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Well the dinner was actually silent as promised. In addition to that it was the first time of you both were eating together so this should be natural right?
Hence, even though he told you to eat with your friends from next day, you always had some excuses up your sleeves to come up every time he turned you down. And now it was almost everyday that you started eating dinner with him.
Truthfully speaking, he kind of looked forward for you to pop up in his chamber daily to ask for having dinner together, he felt comfortable in your presence. You did not talk too much but there was an adequate amount of exchange of words. He started to like them.
Over the past days you did notice that he was getting comfortable with you and the scent around him had become less fragrant, just a bit, not much that you shouldn't be worried of yet. Which means he's still going through some issues fighting inside him all alone.
You did not realize but you actually started to like Jay more and more with the passing of days. The only time of the day you waited eagerly for was the night, more specifically, the dinnertime to spend some time with him.
While having casual conversations you also got to know that he actually wanted to become an astronaut when he was around six years old. He told how he wanted to click photos of the planets all by himself while standing on the moon. You chuckled just by thinking how cute little Jongseong would have been back then. You admired even the little things about him.
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And now you thought it's time to confront him so you decided to do it before having today's dinner.
You opened the door and went inside after he told to come in. "Oh Y/n? It's dinnertime already." He smiled and looked at his wrist watch. He took his eburnean colored coat off his chair, "Let's go."
"Wait doctor, I think I've not told you before that I'm studying psychiatry side by side so if you ever need someone to talk to, I’ll be always there for you." You said unsure about how this conversation would go.
"In that case, I think you are catching up pretty fast Y/N I’m impressed." He said while walking towards the door.
"You must be utterly depressed right?" That statement stopped him on his tracks. He turned around, “Y/n there’s an unspoken rule that a doctor should always treat their patients indiscriminately but as a person you should know not to cross the boundaries or make assumptions.”
"I know that very well but If worrying is called crossing boundaries then I’ve crossed that long time ago. I’m sorry but you can drop your act of being all happy and content in front of me, and I promise I won’t judge you at all."
You saw his expression change, "And why does it bother you so much?"
"I don’t know, I just want to remind you that you have someone by your side willing to listen to your worries before it’s too late." You answered.
"You know why I fear opening up to people, it’s because of the constant fear of getting hurt even more. I’ve tried trusting people but guess what, all the times I was left wounded and betrayed. Now do you expect to heal my deep seated scars while maintaining your limits? I bet you can’t."
"What must have hurt you so much that you have brilliantly aced putting on a mask of being the happiest person alive in front of others?" Now you were really pissed.
"I don’t know, experience maybe? I can’t really drag my miseries upon others, can I?" He furrowed his eyebrows.
You let out a huge sigh, "It’s not dragging your miseries, it’s expressing what you are going through."
"And? Do you think I’m the only one out there being depressed. There are millions of people living with it and that’s how life goes on."
"And for how long that life goes on?", you snapped, "I might not be as experienced as much as you but I’ve also seen fare share of depressed people, none of them as bad as you."
"Then tell me y/n, what made you think my depression is the worst you‘ve come across till now?"
That’s it. No more words to say. What explanation were you supposed to give that how you figured out he’s going through something really dark?
"What? Say something. Don’t tell me you have some superpower to sense people’s feelings." He chuckled dryly and left the room. But he thought to himself why he got so worked up, is it because he hates it how people suddenly seemed to start caring about him. Still he shouldn’t have been this much harsh to you. He felt a pain in his chest. Why are you making him wary of his feelings, why the strings are slowly getting intertwined when he clearly didn’t want to.
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It's been a week since that incident. Whenever you crossed paths with him in the hallways, he would ignore you, during the surgeries he would speak formally with you and interacted the least.
But one thing was for sure, his fragrance was overwhelmingly getting much more beautiful than ever, you can’t help but think it as a dangerously huge warning sign which made you really very worried, but what could you possibly do when he chose to push you away?
You were returning to your room after eating dinner by yourself. As you were walking through the hallways his scent made it's way to you. As a reflex you looked around to see if he was nearby but he was not.
"How? Is he hiding or something?" You started to follow the direction of the scent and you ended up in front of the upstairs to the roof.
"What? Don't tell me his scent travelled this far??" You frowned as you realized that you had to cross two floors while following his scent.
Upon getting to the roof your eyes went wide and you immediately ran towards the railings over which Jay was sitting.
"WTF GET DOWN!!" You pulled him by his shirt from behind. He flinched at your loud shrill voice. Not to mention that he lost his balance and was about to fall off the opposite direction.
"AAAAAA" he screamed as he saw his life flash in front of his eyes while having both his hands rowing in the air.
"NOT THAT SIDE! NOT THAT SIDE!" You felt your lungs blast as you screamed harder and used your full force to get him this side.
You succeeded while falling back and he fell on the roof too.
"Ah my back!" He whined. You sat up straight, "Are you being serious now? What were you doing while sitting at the edge?"
"Why? Can't I have some fresh air?"
"Getting fresh air for the last time?"
"What? No! I was in real enjoying the view of the city."
"While sitting there? What if you fell by accident or something, you're so stupid." You started to cry.
"W-why are you crying?" Jay said, while starting to cry himself.
"Why are you crying?" You started to cry harder.
"I'm crying because you are crying." He started to cry even more as well and pulled you in a hug which caught you off guard.
You thought, maybe he's vulnerable at this state and needs some support, perhaps you can give that to him so you started to slowly pat him while sniffing.
"Why? Why are you more depressed these days?" you said through your sniffs.
He pulled you out of the hug. "Why are you being so nice to me while I've been so mean?"
You smiled while your cheeks had dried tears, "You must have had a reason."
"I did. I lost my mother a few months ago, I was closer to her than anyone else in my whole life. The situation was uncalled and I was one of the doctors who were operating on her that day. I was advised to stay out of it for but I begged them to be there with my mother, they did give me a smaller responsibility, but I should've taken the center role so that I could save her, I lost her, I lost myself as a doctor." He looked down and started to cry more.
You held his hands, "Please don't beat up yourself for that. I'm sure all of you gave your best. Do you think your mother will be feeling good if she saw her son in this state?"
"I know that, in addition to this, the only one time I fell in love with a girl, I managed to hurt her feelings too. How will I be forgiven, I'm such a bad person." He broke down into your arms.
"Fell in... love with a girl?" You thought while eyes flickering at his side.
You brought out your handkerchief from your pocket and gave it to him.
"I'm sure the girl you love will understand once you explain it to her, for now wipe your tears and let's get downstairs." You stood up.
He gulped, "Did I hurt her once again?"
"What?"
You saw him stand up while he wiped off his tear stains.
"Did I hurt you once again?"
"Wh- why does it- wait- what are you saying?" You were confused at what he was trying to get at. One time he's asking if he hurt the girl he loves and now he's asking you the same question.
"Dummy!" He got closer and held your shoulders. "I am talking about you. I have been in love with you and I just felt wrong all the time."
You couldn't believe your ears what you just heard but your heart had already started performing somersaults. "Why would you feel wrong?"
Heart thumping, he continued, "When I realized my feelings I was afraid that what if you don't reciprocate them, I felt wrong for falling in love, then I felt wrong for hurting you all this time then I felt wrong for--" You didn't want hear further and did what you wanted to do ever since you fell in love with him. Kissed him.
Both of your lips embraced each other's softness as if both of you expressed your longingness for each other. You could feel how sorry and bad he felt for treating you like that and he could feel how happy you were to have him as a lover.
You both parted for air while foreheads attached. "I love you Jongseong." You said breathily.
"Jong-jongseong?" He was all giggly and started blushing.
"Are you turning pink now?" You grinned while teasing him.
"Yes!" He chuckled. "By the way I like your fragrance." He commented.
"But I've not applied any fragrance." You detached your foreheads and looked into his eyes as why he would lie.
"I'm not talking about body odor. It's the kind of fragrance I get from people who are cheerful, the more happy they are, the more pleasant smell they emit. Right now I'm inhaling the best fragrance I've ever smelled in my entire life. Sounds absurd right? Come downstairs it's cold here." You were shocked to know what he just said, he isn't kidding is he? You thought as you saw his figure leaving you and walking downstairs.
