Still Alive

Mary | 19 | too many mental illnesses to count

[wordsnquotes]

Everything interests me,            but nothing holds me.

Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet (via wordsnquotes)

[hunrry]

[chessys]

*never moves on from anything ever*

[imp-deactivated20171219-deactiv]

to constantly have your eye on some idealized version of a future-“you” is to doom yourself indefinitely into a state of fragmented dissociation

[jphcrk-deactivated20251128]

[madsrecovers]

[cloudy-lionheart-deactivated201]

I keep seeing posts about the soft trauma victims and the victims who apologize and are too nice and I feel y'all but please also support:

- the victims who are mean or closed off as a defense mechanism - the victims who will lash out (unless it ends in abuse, which is a different story) - the victims who are permanently/temporarily mute or nonverbal - the victims who cry in the street and scream - the victims who do drastic things like running away or hurting themselves - the victims who can’t express emotions well because of their trauma - the victims who are unfriendly and seem cold because they don’t want to be abused again

Please support these trauma victims too. I’ve been all of these, and we hate it just as much as you do. We’re trying, and our behavior and trauma might not fit your idea of the “good survivor”, but we’re trying so goddamn hard, so please show us some love too.

[dokelsss]

[puff0202]

you know how some people having resting bitch face? i have resting dissociation face. people ask me on the reg if i am like okay or dying or what because my neutral expression is just a vacant stare with a hint of existential dread

[sakonyshakurburton]

[positivelypresent]

[marisatomay]

“im trying my best!!” i say as if my best didnt pack up and leave me in 2012 without any warning

[pussylipgloss]

*spends yet another day being honest and loyal*

[tinaillustration]

[livingstills]

[demiiwhiffin]

[eatingdisorderconfession]

20220) I sometimes feel like I'm just collecting symptoms and illnesses for show.

[disabilityuserboxes]

this user is still healing