THINGS CARRIED. THINGS LOST. THINGS LEFT BEHIND
             Things Carried. Things Lost. Things Left Behind
In case you’re wondering, of course Tim O’Brien inspired this post. His work always does… Anyway, we stuffed our backpacks and took off to find something this summer. Maybe a deeper sense of self? Sure. A place to reflect? Absolutely. Time to restore ourselves? Seems the closest purpose of this trip, actually. Jyo and I work multiple jobs all year—extra so that we could pull off this trip. We lost t-shirts, toothbrushes, bras (not like you think, people), tennis shoes, headphones, a dog (but we found her…), inter alia. Anyway, we found more things than we’ve lost. Maybe “found out” or discovered are a bit more apt here.
At the top of the list, I discovered that I’m too hard on myself. That I don’t think I deserve to relax. Success is not an option. I wrestle, nay strangle any challenge that blocks me from what I want. So while we’ve been away, I’ve also continued teaching online. The writing and revision continues (I can’t stop that…so it’s not a problem). Mostly, though, I’ve lost a small part of the old me. In short, I woke up and faced a monster much darker and deeper-rooted than the one in Ness’s/Dowd’s stunning novel. So what does all of this mean?
I don’t have a clue.
All I know is that hitting the pause button, even the stop button is critical if I want to maintain sanity/balance/”normalcy” (whatever that means). I’m beyond thankful for the folks who remain steadfast by my side and for the new life long friends I’ve made. And for the friends and family who are no longer around. I pause. Stop. Look about. And I marvel.
Grazie to our followers for sharing and believing in our journeys this summer! E’ presto!
Ciao,
Mell










