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I miss you so much

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im sorry

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27 Club

I've never felt more suicidal as an adult before. To the point where here I am, more than a decade later to vent. I've been stuck in bed. Self harming again. Fantasizing about the ways I would do it. How long until someone would find me. I'm spiraling and don't know how to pull myself out of it. I started new medication and trying to hold on until it makes some kind of difference. My therapist told me some hard to hear advice, that motivation won't come easily right now and it will be up to me and self discipline. The problem is I don't have any. Simple tasks are so difficult. I don't want to wake up in the morning, all I want to do is sleep. I wish the world would do me a favor and end my life for me.

[fairylilies]

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me the last 5 days

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[pussymargiela]

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spicy food is a socially acceptable way to hurt yourself

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i know doing drugs will be bad for my mental health tomorrow

but i dont want to feel sad tonight

maybe i can meet somewhere in the middle and still get some sleep

[remanence-of-love]

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UGH but i take everything personally

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Haven't used Tumblr since I was 17.... back 11 years later and still struggling, so inevitably I turn to darkest corner on the Internet. Makes sense.

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its funny coming back to this corner of the internet that I haven't visited since I was 17 and seeing how nothings changed.

[intoxens]

[soluse]