I'm sorry that I let you down

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[deliciousolds]

Halftone Sai Brushtex

A set of 9 halftone brushtex bitmaps for paint tool Sai

Download the zip file and copy them into sai’s brushtex folder. 

These brushtex can be used with any brush with the following settings. The elemap is irrelevant, as long as the value is below 50. 

[dioic1]

BROTHERS!!!!🔥🎩👒

[holyisthenameofmyruthlessaxe]

after a suicide attempt in 2016

[holyisthenameofmyruthlessaxe]

“When Daddy comes in, he carries you to bed. Is there anything you feel like you could eat, Pokey? Anything at all? All you can imagine putting in your mouth is a cold plum, one with really tight skin on the outside but gum-shocking sweetness inside. And he and your mother discuss where he might find some this late in the season. Mother says hell I don’t know. Further north, I’d guess. The next morning, you wake up in your bed and sit up. Mother says, Pete, I think she’s up. He hollers in, You ready for breakfast, Pokey. Then he comes in grinning, still in his work clothes from the night before. He’s holding a farm bushel. The plums he empties onto the bed river toward you through folds in the quilt. If you stacked them up, they’d fill the deepest bin at the Piggly Wiggly. Damned if I didn’t get the urge to drive to Arkansas last night, he says. Your mother stands behind him saying he’s pure USDA crazy. Fort Smith, Arkansas. Found a roadside stand out there with a feller selling plums. And I says, Buddy, I got a little girl sick back in Texas. She’s got a hanker for plums and ain’t nothing else gonna do. It’s when you sink your teeth into the plum that you make a promise. The skin is still warm from riding in the sun in Daddy’s truck, and the nectar runs down your chin. And you snap out of it. Or are snapped out of it. Never again will you lay a hand against yourself, not so long as there are plums to eat and somebody-anybody-who gives enough of a damn to haul them to you. So long as you bear the least nibblet of love for any other creature in this dark world, though in love portions are never stingy. There are no smidgens or pinches, only rolling abundance. That’s how you acquire the resolution for survival that the coming years are about to demand. You don’t earn it. It’s given.”

excerpt from Cherry by Mary Karr, context being after a suicide attempt at age 13

[greysfields]

complicated relationships with your parents are like. you cut up fruit and bring it to my room without me asking. i can't remember the last time you told me that you were proud of me. you told me i wasn't good enough for you but i'm not even good enough for myself. your hugs feel like coming home. i can't tell you anything that happens in my life. i doubt myself every day because of something you said to me when i was eight. would you like to hear about my day? please don't ask me about my day. i miss you even though you're in the next room. i wish we didn't live together. i've never loved or resented anyone as much as i've loved and resented you. are you okay? are we okay? are we ever going to be okay?

[soracities]

the “humans are inherently selfish” fanclub can genuinely and in all honesty go to hell. i once came back from a school yard where the kids had heaped piles of leaves and cut wildflowers on a narrow strip of grass bc a bee had died. i actually want to cry.

[cup-of-anxi-tea]

when i was a child, my parents told me our houseplant would die of lack of sunlight. i was so young i don’t even remember this, but apparently, my response to this was starting to carry the plant around like an emotional support stuffed animal. whenever my family went outside i would hold the pot on my head to make it reach the sun better. i wasn’t in school yet, didn’t have any exposure to the lessons on caring they give in elementary, i don’t remember my thought process - but i can guess. kids integrally care about things, even tiny bugs and inanimate plants. humans care.

[karadin]

don’t let them beat it out of you

[saint-batrick]

as someone in my 40s, may i also add: if they beat it out of you? put in the work to relearn it until it’s a part of you again. a part you’re proud enough of that if someone tells you it’s dumb and you should stop, you can laugh and say “oh, no. no, i don’t believe i will.” and then keep on keepin’ on.

compassion can often be a skill that needs to be relearned. so relearn it and revel in it.

[headspace-hotel]

Don’t let your heart stay barren

[bigmickswingin]

Like yea, the modern world drags it through a wringer, but remember that humans literally have brain chemistry that makes them feel good to help others. We’re a herd animal.

[lamina-tsrif]

SEA MOON SEE YOU

[galaxy-warp]

[prettypatriicks]

hey you talk! kind of!

[prettypatriicks]

bee and puppycat + blue

[astrolavas]

For The Future art time (part 1/????)

[libbyframe]

Collection of my recent sketches~

[startrekvsfaceapp]

Spock mind melding with Pike

[cywscross]

Meetings

[canid-daze]

Noticed this while listening to midnight, but brambleclaw yells at squirrel constantly even for like the tiniest amount of sass. Meanwhile crowpaw is straight up hostile unprovoked and all this mf gotta say is “oh whatever he just being difficult on purpose :/“ to himself???? It’s both extremely frustrating and hilarious like dude what???

[ragsy]

holy mother of god i have GOT to get weirder

[ragsy]

Don't get me wrong, I don't want to be frightening. I still want grandmas to think I'm a nice young lad. I just think it's vital to my health that I am bewildering and slightly indecipherable

[chipper-smol]

Two ways to build a character playlist

1: Painstakingly going through hundreds of songs and dismissing them if they tangent in the slightest from the character. Arranging songs in order of plotline so that it takes you on a secondary adventure. Squinting at a song for an hour straight because it really resonates with the character… but its a love song.

2: Ok so the first two minutes don’t really fit them at all but this one lyric made me go OOF so *tosses it in*. The singer sounds like them and the animatic in my head is entertaining as hell *tosses it in.* I have this one idea for an AU I haven’t written out yet and this song really fits it *tosses it in.* The art reminds me of-

[bakedbananners]

I love when dogs and cats just let you pat the shit out of them and they enjoy it so much. Like yeah dude real quick I just need to play you like a bongo and they’re like god yes I’ve been waiting for someone to play me like a bongo