12/28
i miss you. dearest love, i hope this message finds you well. it’s been nearly 3 months since we’ve seen each other.. and i don’t know what to do about it.. last month i messaged your friend on tumblr, but i guess she didn’t see it or something, i just happened to ask if she knew if you were okay or something of the sort, and rambled on a bit of how dearly i missed you. that was sort of a last case scenario after i had tried other means of reaching you, that didn’t work. none of it worked. but, i still have so much hope for us. i haven’t lost any hope.
and usually when people are feeling tired and lonely, they look for a nice place to go to. they find comfort in some of their favorite places. this might be a nearby park, their favorite restaurant, a close friend’s house, or even just their cozy little bed. people often find joy in staying at these places, and they long to stay there for as long as they possibly can. i used to be like those people too, but now i see myself changing. when i feel down and lost in my thoughts, i turn to you. when i feel myself drifting away, i hold on tightly to you. maybe you are my greatest source of joy. maybe i do not have to go far to find comfort. maybe my bright place is not a place at all. it’s you. you are my bright place.
you’re my sun, my moon, and all of the stars. the road that led me home when i was lost and my pride on days where i felt useless. you gave me a reason to smile when i thought everything was over and it felt like the end. during this past year, i was able to discover another side of myself, a part i never knew i had and it is all thanks to you. i promise to stay with you on your bad days. as time passes, i promise to forever accept who you were, who you are, who you will become. if say, we do grow apart, i promise to cherish the time i was granted to get to know you and to grow as a human being through simply being in your presence. i promise to always love you.
i’m sad that we may not be able to start the new year together. but, i really hope that every person in this world has someone like you in their lives. you never know where this next year will take you, but why should that stop you. i hope this is a year where you smile a lot, learn a lot, and love a lot. i hope you discover something new and exciting, hold on to what you’ve always loved before, and find something unexpected that will amaze you like nothing else, because honestly those are the best surprises. just remember to take me with you if you are jumping on that bus, train, or plane to explore, because you’re not getting away from me that easily. i’ll always love you. i have become so attached to you, it really pains to go long days without you here, i miss you. i hope, whatever you’re doing, you’re happy. that’s all i want for you.
until then, farewell my sweet darling. for the last time today, forevermore, i love you. always know that you are loved, by me and by many others.
happy 10th anniversary.
