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[potestasaeterna-a]

    Totally got inspired to do some Xemnas posts, and then I end up fucking hating my entire existence because I may have ended up causing the totaling of my 17 year old car because I was an idiot. Gotta love that feeling. Idk if this means I’ll be drowning myself in replies on here and my multimuse, or going completely inactive until I can stop hating myself so much

[lyriccl]

hey does anyone have tips on how to get rid of a migraine I've had one for almost 24 hours and it's very painful

[lyriccl]

having a pretty bad mood drop so I'm just gonna lurk maybe. discord and ims are open too but I won't promise I'll be upbeat or talkative.

[lyriccl]

Anons are so weird?? Why did they send an ask mentioning my muse to someone I'm not a mutual with (I don't even know if they follow me tbh, but I do appreciate the kind response on their end!), and also mocking the fact that Emma has been through abuse??

Nevermind I hate it here

[lyriccl]

i was going to work on things tonight.... but tbh I'm spiraling pretty hard and I don't think anything is going to get done. I'll drop my discord under the cut in case you want to chat, but please tell me who you are when you add me. much love.

maxie_thegremlin

[lyriccl]

vent below.

thinking about deleting this blog. not only have I not been in the best place mentally, but I feel people don’t want to interact with Emma. I’ve really tried my best to put myself out there, but barely anyone actually takes the effort. at least, that’s how I feel.

idk. maybe i’m just being dramatic.

[swtorspeaksie-blog]

there is no point in having close online friends because eventually they leave you and theres nothing you can do about it, no matter how long youve known each other or how much history you have with each other.

im venting here for reasons that I dont want certain people to see and  they dont follow me here nd im stupid because communication is improtant but im scared if i say antyhing and it wil just make things worst and make me seem like a bad friend. im fuming with jealousy rn and i cant think of anything but negatrive thoughts and outcomes to this situation and I hate how it makes me feel and im rying to be positive about it and its just not working no matter how hard i force myself to, but its not like its gonna matter anyways because no one caressss!!! :) i have no one to vent to because who can you trust these days on tumblr really and i know swtor fandom here has no conenction to the other fandom this is involved with so i guess this is a safe place for me to rant so thanks for just listining or not listening doesnt matter I just need to write and get it out othwersies its just going to continue destroying me from the inside out and continue to make me miserable tho again it doesnt really matter im gonna be miserable either way!!! :)