gutted.
tw: injury
the injury... sucks.it just plain sucks. sure, hugo could look at it as a break from all the FUCKING dancing cause he, the non-dancer, decided it was wise to join a company founded on dance. he could see it as a chance for haknyeon to have more parts and spotlight in the title track by covering hugo’s parts and be happy that the maknae got some more much deserved attention. he could see it in a lot of silver lining ways, but mostly he just felt like a failure.
in the pit of his stomach, he knew he had let them all down.
these were his brothers, all five of them. he loved them to pieces, so to have this injury because his coordination sucks and it finally caught up to him makes him feel like pure shit. he doesn’t let it show in front of haknyeon, or jungwoo, or even ricky, because he doesn’t want to worry them. it’s nearly impossible, however, to hide how he’s feeling from hosung, especially when he looks at hugo like that.
“hosung please... stop looking at me like that.” he can feel his voice cracking from trying to hold the emotion back, and his throat starts to feel sore as he tries to choke down those feelings that bubble up. he’s on the couch, rubbing his hands over his face until the skin is red and semi-raw. “please don’t look at me like that...” he says it again into his hands, his voice straining as the tears finally catch up and brim over his covered eyes. a small sob escapes him, and he just stays hidden in his hands, not wanting to show his weak side off.
@rkhosung