#;iceberg

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we probably have a dissociative disorder but we've also got 99 other problems so idrc about that rn

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who let Michael and Tim buy new clothes ;-; I'm cooked

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so we (especially Randall) have some kind of pain or fatigue in our legs, and we use a cane to help with that. due to this, we walk slower than our family members. we often ask them to slow down so we can keep up, which is always met with the response of "well, I'm cold, so I'm not going to slow down for you." (or some variation)

today our dad mocked our autism in response to us, and now we feel like maybe we're advocating for our needs and feelings too much? like if we don't do it enough we have a meltdown but if we do it too much everyone gets mad at us. I dunno its just exhausting

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I'm realizing that if I don't do things in a way that works for us then it won't get done at all. unfortunate because my way is mildly bothersome to our family in the short term but not doing it is worse in the long term

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I'm going to stand up and I'm going to do chores. and not have a mental breakdown again like when I tried this less than ten minutes ago

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I'm not set to front in sp and I don't feel like doing it rn. just posting this so we know when to log it later