#`musing

[inxflux]

❛  I

        p r o m i s e

                            I won't break it.

[timetossedmiko]

Death!

An incurable disease that's forever flowing through our veins. The symptoms can be seen daily. All around us, but not necessarily noticeable. Or-- we at least refuse to acknowledge them. We all go on like it doesn’t exist; until that certain someone has fallen to the darkness, then we get stricken with grief. Our tears spill over our faces and fall against the cracked earth, our hearts ache for them, our breath hitching, our lungs burning as if we’re drowning in our sea of salty tears. We all reach out and try to grasp them, to pull them back to our bosoms like a mother does to a newborn babe. We all wish with every part of our being that we could bring them back; wish that we could just change one thing to keep it from happening but we never get to have our wishes come true. We all stand around and stare at the hole in the ground and plead to our God to give us one more chance with them; to be able to hear their voice or feel their touch. We dance. We cry. We sing. We falter. We hold high and we drop low-- but this is life. This is the life we have before that disease carries us away with the rest. We will all forever grieve. Our tears will never run dry, our sobs will never go quiet, our fingers will never stop trembling-- and death with never stop coming.

What happens when we beg for our own death? We plead into the darkness, ask for it to take us away from this world and hurt. Stop the bleeding, the panted breath, the trembling hearts. We all want nothing more than to live and be free. But what if you're never free? Never able to live because you're a horrid person. You're the very disease that people fear. You want nothing more than to take yourself away from the world. Make it better, make [[t h e m]] better. You don't want anyone to suffer anymore and you dipping into the darkness is the only way to heal it?

I welcome the darkness, I sing and plea to it. Hold my hands high into the air and dare for its silent whisper to pass through my lips and make my blood run cold.

[timetossedmiko]

         "{We} are the Jewel of Four Souls. 

                         {We} shall grant your deepest wish. 

                                           {We} shall make your dreams come true. 

                                                                    And {We} shall see it to the v e r y end. "

[timetossedmiko]

Sweet Addiction

Enslaved in your presence, Hoping to never be clean, You're my sweet addiction, You're everything to me. I can't start my day without you, I can't end it with you too far apart, You're my sweet addiction, You're the one who holds my heart. I don't want to go to rehab, I know I will relapse, You're my sweet addiction, Without you I would collapse. You intoxicate my being, Leaving me dizzy and free, You're my sweet addiction, My never ending plea.