I LIKED A BOY WHEN I WAS TEN,
AND I STILL DO AT EIGHTEEN,
THOUGH WE LAST TALKED IN TWENTY TWENTY.
HIS ROOM WAS ACROSS MY BALCONY
AND MY HEART FLUTTERED EVERYTIME
HE WOULD PASS A SMILE, OR A WAVE A HI.
I WOULD ACT LIKE I DIDN'T CARE BUT DEEP WITHIN
I WISH HE WOULD SEE HOW MUCH I ADMIRED HIM
HE WAS A GENTLEMEN BACK THEN
CAUSE NOW HE DOESN'T LIVE HERE ANYMORE
HE LIVES MILES AWAY, ABROAD.
I SOMETIMES VISIT HIS ACCOUNT
JUST TO REMEMBER HIS FACE,
AND MY HEART STILL FLUTTERS
THE WAY IT DID WHEN I WAS TEN
EVEN IF I AM EIGHTEEN NOW.
I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THE ADMIRER FROM AFAR
I WISH I COULD TALK TO HIM JUST ONCE AGAIN
HEAR HIS JOKES AND THAT STUPID VOICE
THAT MADE ME WANT TO STOP
AND LISTEN TO HIM NIGHTS AND DAYS.
AND I KNOW IT WELL ENOUGH
BUT THESE FEELINGS ARE MINE AND MINE ALONE
AND I'VE CARRIED THEM FROM TEN TO EIGHTEEN,
THROUGH EVERY MAY AND IN-BETWEEN,
GENTLY, LIKE A LETTER UNREAD,
FULL OF WORDS I NEVER SAID.