#{muse ramblings}

[astral-multiverse]

"If there is one thing I cannot stand whenever it was in Midgar or just dealing with Shinra in general..."

"It's those goddamn riot shields blocking my Buster Sword...! Especially if they're paired with stun batons!"

[fierylittlehotties]

Question: Who's the biggest pervert?

Courtney: Roxy

Johnnie: Roxy

Roxy: Wait why is it me?

[fierylittleniece]

Roxy: I'm hot right? Courtney: 100% Johnnie: Without a doubt, legs Roxy: Then why am I single? Johnnie: Because of the stick Roxy: What stick? Courtney: The stick that's up your ASS

[ljterariness]

amber and jealousy , because apparently one rambling wasn't enough today

it starts young , with her sisters . olive and violet , close in age looks and personality . they'd talk to and from school , over the dinner table , freely with shanon (mother) . they have everything she doesn't and it eats away at her , she feels it burn beneath her skin as she cuts into her dinner . silent as always .

olive and violet grow up before she does , they graduate and begin families , they don't live at home anymore . amber is jealous of that too . she spends her days with math she doesn't understand , writing on books she's already read . her sisters have grown past that , they're unaware of the silence they've left behind in exchange for their own lives .

olive dies . hardly lived and leaving behind a son . amber doesn't consider it significant , it is . the jealousy subsides for a while - it'd be disrespectful really . she plays role of dutiful grieving sister but is really only grieving for monotony . because nothing is really quite the same after .

she's jealous of her classmates too , as they walk for graduation . they have family out there cheering for them , colleges to go to and people to celebrate with . amber has bags full of books stolen from her school's library , in exchange for walking . and her sister , violet (alive) waiting to drive her home . so she has every right to be jealous really , it's another cliché she's robbed of .

it spreads as she begins college , being cooped up for a year , next to silent can do that to a person surprisingly . she's jealous of the greek class: of bunny , henry , camila , charles and francis . what they must have that she's lacking in . she knows languages - latin and spanish , so it's not even like she'd be incompetent . amber's aware when she sees them about , their better than - almost uneasy demeanour . so yes - she is jealous . not that she'd ever admit it .

parties aren't a rarity , warm beer clutched in hand as amber clings to the wall - or cigarette ( she only picked it up for something to do ) clutched in hand as she sat in the cool night air . she envied the people who had the courage to get up and dance , talk to a stranger or take someone's hand . she seethed with jealousy , bottled it up for each year of existence . anyone who seemed to be able to socialise was an inconvenience .

richard papen , who managed to study greek . who joined the class late after she'd been turned down . it was an endless loop of discontent really , and soon enough he seemed to absorb the sense they carried around . it was like the world was laughing at her . each thing she longed for was just out of her grasp , just enough for someone else and god - wasn't it her turn ?

to be jealous of a tragedy was sickening really , amber knows this . but wasn't it all like the crime novels she'd read ? it just made amber feel odd , she knows what she knows , is aware its an accident . but it's all so unnerving that she feels the desperation to be there , watch him fall with her own eyes . and it's disgusting and she feels it because amber doesn't control her emotions these days , she just follows them blindly .

[hellfire-saurian]

"Do you think they would listen?"

"TO WHAT? MAKE THEM DEAF."

"No! No. No hurting."

"THEN WHAT THEY LISTEN TO?"

"To us. The problem."

"THERE NO PROBLEM. ME FINE."

"No, no you aren't. You're a parasite."

[ask-the-vaulthunter]

"I genuinely want to believe jack has changed but I.... also dont think jack has changed? Like sure hes in a gun now but.."

[tomahawk-swing]

“Right ... Father’s day.”

“You think Maha’d like a little statue of himself? We could put it on the counter at the restaurant. It’d go well with the life-sized statue outside ... And Emilio too. I’m sure he’d love a coffee mug with a dumb joke on it.”

Anything to keep his mind busy. Dingo doesn’t wanna be thinking too hard about today.

[ask-bard-wandersong]

My hat was stolen... :(