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[aeon-eiulatus]

there is a  ̶t̶̶h̶̶i̶̶n̶ ̶l̶̶i̶̶n̶̶e̶  between          what is love is hate is pure insanity

[aeon-eiulatus]

[aeon-eiulatus]

don’t need your absolution so don’t hold that sword over me for my confessions i don’t need a church i don’t need salt to know where it hurts

[aeon-eiulatus]

when do you get your soft, italicized 'oh'?

the emergency

something goes wrong. there's urgency. everything gets turned upside down, and you have to grab for the things that matter most-- Oh. suddenly, there's perspective, and at the worst possible moment, the moment when there is so much else going on, you realize that you have been breathless with want for so, so long. you want everyone to be safe, but please, please, you want *them* to be safe. you want everything to be okay so that you can have another chance to get things right. a chance to start over. and everything will be okay, of course, because you've made it through bad moments before, and that foundation of trust is there, even if you've never quite acknowledged it to its full potential. you trust them. you need them. Oh.

[aeon-eiulatus]

     it’s been  s o   l o n g              feels like pins & needles in my heart                         s o   l o n g                                  i can feel it tearing me apart   

[aeon-eiulatus]

where is a long needle?    where is a short needle?       goodbye, hill of punishment