#&starboy.

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“I’ll be here until you fall asleep.”

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Sumin doesn’t know what was most surprising: Juwon sitting at the edge of her bed, staring at her with a smile on his lips, or the way her heart beat fast against her rib cage, this time not because of the usual nightmare but rather something else. Something she couldn’t explain.

“You really don’t have to, you know?”

There are still beads of sweat on her forehead and she wonders how he can look at her and smile when she looks that miserable. Stress is obvious on her features, tiredness evident in the grey bangs under her eyes, light but still there. She was a mess and she was aware of it. Perhaps it hadn’t been the best idea to overwork herself but she had needed a distraction. When he hadn’t appeared at the coffee shop, Sumin had nothing else to distract her mind from the constant nightmare that haunted her every night and kept her awake in the darkness of her room at night.

The dark hadn’t been that terrifying since she had been a child.

How had Juwon decided it was alright to put up with her in that state? She wasn’t even sure she wanted to know the answer. At least for that moment, she wanted to enjoy how warm it was to have him so close (yet he was so far away still).

(Just come closer... I might look strong but I’m fragile and I need you closer.)

“I’m alright. It was just a nightmare.” Her smile wavers and for a moment her eyes show a certain fear in them. But she wasn’t alone and everything seemed better because of that. She felt... safer?

“But hey... if you’re staying...” Somehow, she finds enough strength to master a wider smile, almost playful, eyes focusing on his yet again, the lights from the street outside, ascending from the small window by her bed, brighten up her features, accentuating the flaws that her mother used to say made her even more special, more beautiful in her own way. She wasn’t sure if she believed her. Not yet. “You could read me a story.”

(Tell me the story of the boy that visited the coffee shop every day despite not liking coffee all that much. Tell me how it ends for the girl that smiled at him and only him.)

(Tell me it ends with a happy ever after.)

She hadn’t gotten one of those in a while.

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✤ + suwon!!!!!

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who said i love you first? okay, this might sound surprising, but sumin would be the first one to say i love you. i picture her doing it in a very subtle way though because that’s just sumin. deep down she’s a bit scared that those feelings are not reciprocated. who laughs when the other trips? juwon, definitely. though i can see that smirk on sumin’s lips when he trips and having to place a hand in front of her mouth to keep herself from laughing. she still makes fun of him though, of course.who pays the bills? both. they split the expenses, even though sumin is the one that has the most money. she makes sure that if they are ever in a tight situation, he will shut up and allow her to put money of her own to help them.which one makes a bigger deal around the holidays? i’m thinking juwon would make a bigger deal around the holidays. sumin would try and keep her enthusiasm controlled but she’d probably end up getting invaded with the holidays spirit. the holidays remind her of her family that she lost but she remembers that he is an orphan too so she actually ends up attempting to make the holidays the best possible for him so both of them can create better memories for the future.who’s more clumsy? sumin isn’t clumsy at all. she has a grace to her that is inherited from her mother. juwon isn’t clumsy either but i feel like he’d be a little clumsier than sumin.who checks their daily horoscope? juwon just for fun, i’m guessing. he’s reading the horoscope out loud to sumin every day and she makes fun of him for it but she secretly loves it. every morning waking up and when they are having coffee, he’s reading the horoscope to her and she starts calling him ‘starboy’.who sings louder in the car? ...sumin. watch how surprised juwon is the first time she gets lost in the song and sings with feeling at the top of her lungs even though she sings badly. juwon ends up joining.who leaves the cap off the toothpaste? neither.who is more up to date in pop culture? juwon is only up to date when it comes to girl groups, especially anything related to sana or red velvet. sumin is not impressed by this but decides to let it go. she is actually very up to date in pop culture, songs or movies. who insists on going to see the newest movies? sumin. juwon can’t even sit through a movie without losing focus.who cries when the abused animal commercials come on? sumin holds the tears when the animal commercials come on. honestly, deep inside, she’s a big softie. who’s the lighter sleeper? juwon. he barely sleeps. sumin can’t understand this. she wakes up in the middle of the night to see him awake. she wonders if he’s a vampire.who believes in ghosts? neither, i’d say? if juwon believes in ghosts, sumin is unaware of this fact and she doesn’t believe in them or she thinks her parents would have appeared before her, even as ghosts, to say one last goodbye.who does the grocery shopping? both. juwon makes a joke out of basically anything to make sumin laugh.who updates their facebook status more often? sumin. juwon can’t deal with technology and sumin is the one that has more reputation around high society people, having a wide web of followers. that’s the reason why she updates her facebook status more often.

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24, 37, 46.

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24: you receive £60 without any reason, what do you spend it on?

“i’d feel suspicious if i’d get that money without any reason but that’s just me.” she shrugged but still allowed her mind to wander where she’d spend that amount of money on. “on books, probably. and food. what else, am i right?”

37: did you have a dream last night?

“a nightmare, more like it.” if it hadn’t been her best friend asking, sumin wouldn’t have talked about it so openly as she was about to. “it seemed like a memory... of the fire. but there were different aspects about it. there were words shouted and... they were blaming me for everything. that’s... that’s all i could think of last night.”

46: have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough?

all the time. she doesn’t answer but she knows he can see it in the way her gaze drops and how she shifts her weight from one foot to the other. when she raises her gaze again to look at him, she knows he knows.