#( lessons. )

[arctikan]

elsa: your control of your ice is incredible, how did you learn that?

kuai liang, internally: ive been on a strict clock of discipline, deprivation, and control since 6 years old from extensive training in my cryomancy and stealth to become a contract killer along with my older brother.

kuai liang: my brother gave me. lessons

[ehontee]

lesson one.

self-portrait. easy as pie. take a pencil, no brush allowed, no paints allowed. just a pencil or a pen but beware of the flaws in the inability of editing, erasing. you know what he then said, a pen will be mandatory. he wants her to stop undoing everything and then not doing anything because she’s undone so much that she’s lost the will to finish the canvas. self-portrait haeri, you take a pen, you draw. but you don’t draw just anything. ink me who you think you are.

then he had the audacity of telling her that because he knew it was going to be impossible, he was making this a timeless homework.

it’s been a year. 

[ziischeln]

fun fact: one of the many beliefs schmidt trained into erik that persists to this day is the idea that in order to keep anything, in order to deserve anything or anyone, you have to fight tooth and claw for it. anything you haven’t fought for is not yours.

[ziischeln]

Jon: IMAGINE WHEN AUSCHWITZ IS LIBERATED

Jon: AND ERIK THINKS HE'S GOING TO BE ABLE TO ESCAPE

Jon: AND HE C A N  T  T  TT

Sam: H ES G OING TO

Sam: BU T HTH E N.

Sam: HE S EE S TH AT H AN D.

Sam: AND IN THAT MOM E N T

Sam: HE IS CONVINCED ESCAPE IS IMPOSS IB L E

Sam: AND HE J U S T .

Sam: G IV E S U P .

Jon: C RIE SHA R DE R

Jon: THAT

Jon: THAT IS WHEN HE BECOMES PROPERLY COMPLIANT

Jon: AND ACTIVELY WORKS TO BECOME SCHMIDT'S WEAPON

Jon: BECAUSE WHAT ELSE CAN HE DO.

Jon: ERIK BEING NON-VERBAL FOR D A Y S AFTER THAT RELIEVED THAT SOME OF HIS PEOPLE HAVE SURVIVED AND BEEN FREED

Jon: BUT A C  H IN G AND MISERABLE

Jon: BECAUSE HE DIDN'T GET OUT

Jon: (AND IN THE BACK OF HIS MIND HE BELIEVES HE DIDN'T DESERVE TO, AFTER EVERYTHING HE'S DONE AS A SONDNERMROKOMAMANDO, BUT.)

Sam: AN D H I S M O TH ER S V OI C E S CC R EAM IN G

Sam: JU S T KILL HIM

Sam: JUST END THIS

Sam: YOU CAN BE FREE

Sam: AND ER I K J U S T.

Sam: BE L I E VIN G SH AW

Sam: WHEN H E S AY S

Sam: :) WE MUSTNT HUMOR THOSE HALLUCINATIONS :)

Sam: YOURE DELUSIONAL . :)

Sam: YOU DONT W A N T TO BE SICK, DO YOU :)

Sam: BECAUSE HE IS THE W O R S T

Jon: ERIK WHISPERING TO HIS MAMA IN YIDDISH BEGGING HER TO LEAVE HIM ALONE, SHE'S NOT REAL, HE DOESN'T WANT TO BE SICK ANYMORE

Jon: (ERIK HAVING EPISODES WHERE HE CAN'T SPEAK IN ANY LANGUAGE BUT YIDDISH EVEN WHEN SCHMIDT IS SCOLDING HIM AND THREATENING IMPLICITLY HE C A N T)

Jon: (ERIK HAVING BOTH AUTISTIC AND BPD MELTDOWNS OVERSTIMULATED AND SHAKING BUT HE CAN'T STOP SCREAMING AND BREAKING THINGS EITHER)

Jon: (SCREAMING AT SCHMIDT IN A FLURRY OF LANGUAGES AND ROCKING FURIOUSLY ON THE FLOOR)

Sam: SC H M I D T U S IN G TH I S A GAIN ST H I M

Sam: BECAU SE "CA N T YOU S EE H OW CR A Z Y YOU A RE"

Sam: AND ALL OF THAT HORRIBLE HORRIBLE POISONOUS BULLSHIT

Sam: EVEN AFTER HE'S GONE

Sam: HISSING INTO HIS EAR

Sam: "YOU THINK HE LOVES YOU?"

Sam: "HE HASN'T SEEN THE THINGS I HAVE"

Sam: "HE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND THAT YOU'RE A LUNATIC, A MORON"

Sam: "AND ONCE HE DOES"

Sam: "HE'LL LOCK YOU UP H I M S E L F"