#((sometimes))

[llolitadollanganger]

[ahsoka-in-a-hood]

It's so deeply embedded in how Murderbot sees itself that it exists in a society with both construct and human slavery, and that it's role has frequently been that of overseer of human slavery. There are so many layers to it's own identity within an oppressive system when it's been both a victim and an enforcer. It calls itself Murderbot. It doesn't remember how many people it's killed, because of the mindwipes. It identifies itself with the word the people who are afraid of it would use. The thing that pushed it to hack it's governor module and the thing that haunts it the first two books is that it doesn't know if it killed a specific bunch of people on purpose or not. Because it does have hate for humans and it does take pleasure in violence sometimes. It's been the very real monster in people's stories. It's been the boot on their kneck. That's under it's skin. It can't just sort the world into humans and constructs. It knows what it's like to crush a human. It knew that before it knew much else.

It doesn't trust it's own kind. That's not just because it's internalized a lot of predjudice. It doesn't entirely trust itself either.

It's so... it's not just that it wants good people to exist. It's that it can only look for them and find them outside of the system it came from. It's so contemptuous in it's own narration of the people on the ship bound for a indentured servitude, but Mensah picks up on the truth anyway. "You wanted to help those people" "I couldn't have helped them" It's not a revolutionary. It doesn't imagine dismantling the corporation rim. It just wants to neither be hurt or made to hurt people. It tries not to get attached to lost causes. Sometimes it does anyway.

Everything it is, everything it does, has been forged out of being the oppressed and the oppressor at the same time. and anyway I think about that sometimes

[willowwyrd]

I have brainworms

[just-a-joey]

I feel like ITrapped would be a Peacock

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[classycookiexo]

[makingsenseofwhathappened]

- Eleanor Brownn

I love this quote by Eleanor Brownn. It doesn’t ask for any heroics. It just gently reminds me that I’m allowed to protect myself, however that looks.

Her writing gives quiet permission to rest and to heal – and stop burning ourselves up just to make others comfortable.

Not sure about you but I need to be reminded of this much more often than I'd care to admit. 💓💘💙

[sneolover]

@a-bit-too-sillygoofy asked for sneotenna slow dancing so here you go :^3 took a little break from the comic, back to work now