‘‘Send me a ‘☄’ and i’ll tell you something I like about you!’’↳Filed under: Accepting !!
“Since you’re currently acting like an idiot i’m going to have to answer yours first. So here it goes. It’s going to be long. Shut up and read it all, you loser. I’m not repeating myself.”
I don’t think you exactly grasp how much I need you in my life. I could list thousands of reasons I need you in my life. But instead i’m going to write you the letter you asked for in return. I don’t care if you’re being a piss baby right now. But first thing first. Learn to talk to me. I go to you no MATTER the problem. If I have an issue, I do to you. Please learn to do then same rather then go to someone who makes me ‘iffy’ and talk about me to them. You need to understand my feelings. But anyways. Sehun you’re one of my best friends.
You’ve been my best friend since who knows how long. I bet you do though. I know you cherish our friendship and I do as well. I have Mimi, Greyson and Aella but guess what? You came before all of them. You have been with me before all of them. You will always come before all of them. I didn’t take you under my wing for shits and giggles Sehun. I took you under my wing because you were one of the first males I decided to put my trust in.
After seeing my father walk out on me and my mother I hated other men. I even hated myself. I hated everyone. I was terrified to get close to someone only for them to walk out on me as well. I’m not good at expression emotions as well, i’m blunt and harsh with everyone. But i’m too nice at the same time. If i’m hardest on you, I care most about you. And guess what, Sehun? I’m always going to be hard on you. I will always be hard on you. Because I care most. You became my best friend when you came here. To seoul
I don’t know how or why but something about you just made me want to stick to you, protect you, make sure no bad people got near you. Even now i’m like that. Because you’re too clingy with everyone. Hah.. maybe I taught you too well how to get along with others. But I just wish you understood that I get self conscious as well. You have hundreds of other friends, I only have enough to count on one hand. You say i’ll replace you yet you have more friends I could only dream of. But I don’t dream of it. Why?
Simple.
I have you.
And greyson.
And Aella.
And Mimi.
You guys are the only people I need in my life. I don’t feel the need to find strangers to cuddle to feel wanted. I’m harsh to people because i’m just not interested in becoming their friends or getting close to them when I have you guys. When I have you. So next time you think I hate you. I’m mad at you. Ignoring you. Talk to me. Not someone else. Because I will simply hit you and tell you to stop being an absolute assuming asshat about everything. Because I love you.
