#*50words

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PUSH MYSELF INTO YOUR MIND — audio video disco (2011) to pre-hyperdrama, manhandling via carabiners, oral sex, boot worship, affection, nsfw. inspired by this interview. title from madonna's erotica.

gift for @nicante

“What's the biggest show of affection you've ever seen from a fan?”

Hot tears, red lights, moldy carpet. His dirty white shoe pressed against a man’s crotch, tugging the carabiner with force. 

“It won’t mean anything…”

Glazed eyes, tender. Swollen lips, worship undeserved. 

“Hurry, Gaspard, they’re—”

Sweetness, you’re My everything.

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DOES YOUR HUSBAND KNOW THE WAY THAT THE SUNSHINE GLEAMS FROM YOUR WEDDING BAND? — gaspard augé/xavier de rosnay, angst, unrequited love, mutual cheating, internalised homophobia, implied/referenced abuse, gasxav 50 words challenge

prompts: wedding

It’s the eve of Gaspard’s fifth wedding.

She’s not the first.

His? Certainly not the last. 

Xavier stares into his bathroom mirror, flush-faced and tear-stained, love bites exposed on his neck. He yearns for curious hands, desperate and unfaithful. 

Gaspard looks good in blue.

“Promise—”

He’s a beautiful liar too.

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ONLY CRY IN THE RAIN — gaspard augé/xavier de rosnay, post-break up, angst, insomnia, set after woman worldwide, gasxav 50 words challenge

prompts: fire, letters, break up

They arrive on the 21st of May each year.

“Do you still dream, Gaspard?”

No, he answers. How can I?

They arrive on the 21st of May each year. Twelve tear-stained letters, no stamps. 

He burns them twice, for good measure—

—into his memory, 

—onto the kitchen floor.

Memories of ash, dreams of gold.

“Do you still dream…of me?”