are you fucking kidding me--
yesterday I went to Six Flags because a friend from my time at Seton Hall invited me to tag along to celebrate a mini family reunion
his parents were hilarious and I genuinely had a FREAKIN' BLAST at the park
but like
not even over half an hour ago
I got this reeeeeally long text from this dude pretty much saying he was glad I came along and he apologizes if his parents seemed to be asking me a lot of questions and that I'm a good friend and yadda yadda
AND THEN HE TOLD ME HE LIKED ME--
GUYS
I REALLY CAN'T DEAL WITH THIS
I'm upset right now almost to the point of tears and I can't quite place why but I think it has to do with this bullshit concept of "~friendzoning~" and if I respond how I feel truthfully (i.e. that the feeling is NOT mutual) then I'd probably get branded as some frigid bitch who took advantage of ***such a nice guy***
But he won't actually react like that. I'm praying he won't. He's a genuinely good person that I'm glad I'm able to call my friend but there's always that nagging feeling that SOMEONE'S gonna think I owe him affections or even worse THAT I MUST HAVE LIKED HIM BACK because I agreed to come to a private family function
UGH
FUCK, MAN--
I don't even know how to respond to that text; I have practically shut down my emotions right now just so I don't lash out at anything that moves and if I were to reply in this mindset then I'd REALLY come off as frigid
I only picked up my phone to tell him that my joke about someone hitting a bird while riding on a rollercoaster had actually happened once
I didn't frickin' want this