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[thequintessentialqueer]

like really I think a lot of the pain in my life comes from wanting to be the kindest and most loving and generous and accepting version of myself and always feeling like I'm failing but simultaneously being "too" kind (by not recognizing + validating my own needs, boundaries, feelings, etc). in order to keep the peace and maintain the comfort of the people I love I am routinely suppressing my own feelings and needs to the point that I don't even know how to recognize them, and then a ton of Emotions just come flooding out when I'm not sober and it makes me seem very unstable because it's often about something small, but really it's just that I have been burying the big things and at some point something has to give, you know?

[i-numaki-remade]

[vixvaporub]

Have you ever heard that saying that you get to really know someone when someone dies? When my grandpa died it was so stressful, mostly cause he left us in so much debt and my job at the time had a shit payroll staff and I'd get $40 checks instead of the $400 I was suppose to get. After it happened I thought maybe I was the problem cause of how stressful the situation was, but then I found out how one of my so called besties took advantage of how busy I was during that time. She didn't ask once how was I doing or check up on me, but she'd check my private social media. During this time she was gossiping with other people my business and just being a snake overall. I mean, she literally went around and befriended people I didn't like or people that hated me just to kick me more down. I use to think that quote meant the person who had a death personally affect them, I didn't know it also meant the people close to you as well. Ok sorry. You talked about how your family acted when one of your relatives passed and it reminded me of that stuff.

I agree that the quote definitely touches on how people react after someone dies. Before my great grandparents' death, I was kinda neutral with that side of the family, but after their deaths, I saw their true colors, and I was just digusted. Made me happy for the other side of the family I have. I also saw how my dad reacted due to the stress of handling everything... true colors came out there too. (Things I already know but more of a shock to my sister) Also during hard times like that you see how if your friends are good or bad weather friends cause friends should support each other when something big like that happens.

Also that friend is a snake... that's so gross to be doing that to someone who is their friend. But I've also learned that some people just love drama and creating a toxic environment. I also hope you're at a better place with a better payroll department >.>

[benders-diamond-earring]

I posted “I carried a watermelon” on my snap story to see how many people would get the reference and no one has gotten it but tbh the responses I’ve gotten so far are so much better

[honeyblockm]

Well the dsmpblr has its. Ups and downs. And its people, for certain. But I'd rather be here then. Well.

[darthimperius]

Oh is the zutara now pretending every single anon they get is me lmfao

[catboypvnkie]

The thing with Homestuck is— well, A. it’s batshit insane, and B. it’s very much like Undertale or any of the Superwholock properties. It’s more about the community around it than the source material. People dyed their skin grey for cosplay (sharpie bath meme).

ohhhhhhhhhh that makes sense actually. yeah i've heard of that