Am I weird? I'm fucking weird....
So I went on Chubwinchesters last night to see if there was any Dean/Cas to read *a girl can hope*, unsurprisingly, there wasn't. So I read whatever I hadn't read yet *that wasn't rpf, that's 11 different levels of awkward for me*.
After reading it, I realized, there are rarely any Destiel fics where Dean is more than just 'pudgy'. I've only found like, a handful of Destiel fics where he's heavier. And that....really bums me out. QuQ
I want to be able to find Destiel fics where Dean is happy and softer and larger and being in a loving schmoopy relationship with Cas where he happily learns how to cook from Dean and where he indulges him on his birthday and Thanksgiving and Christmas and New Years. Where one afternoon there aren't as many calls to the bunker asking for hunting advise, it's a slow day and they have a chance to enjoy each other. Dean wanting to take advantage of the time to themselves and straddling Cas' lap, conscious of not putting all of his weight on him. Having to lean in for a kiss more than usual lately because his belly's in the way. etc~
I'd write those things myself if I had the talent, just to satisfy my need to read something like that. (ﾟ´Д｀ﾟ)ﾟ