enby dysphoria stuff under the cut
i’ve been having some really bad name dysphoria lately? if that’s what you would even call it? like people will use my given name and it just feels wrong, or i overhear someone talking about someone else with the same name and it feels bad all over.... and with the holidays and everything i’m hearing it more often, so it feels like it’s in my face a lot more
my given name is incredibly feminine. there is no way to shorten it without it sounding equally feminine. my middle name’s equally feminine, but i think a shortening of it feels right? it like edges on androgyny while being sort of feminine still, because while i’m non-binary and want to use they/them pronouns, and present to the general public as neither binary, i also like appearing feminine on occasion. so it feels like this would strike that balance for me
the problem is i’ve never had nicknames. i’ve never once used my middle name, so why would anyone willingly want to go along with calling me by a shortened version of it
basically, even if i decide to go with it, i don’t think anyone in my life would actually use it.
i guess i could start using it at like restaurants and places that ask for a name and stuff and then maybe go from there
