Oct 21, 2019
Them: you look stressed and I’m getting a vibe from you. Are you okay?
Me: ok yeah I am a little stressed.
Them: why?
Me: [explains why]
Them: [long mansplaination about how said stressor isn’t “really” a stressor]
Me: yeah well, it IS actually stressing me out, so—
Them: whoa whoA hold on, there’s no need to blow up about it!
Me: YOU’RE THE ONE WHO ASKED. I WAS LITERALLY GOING TO LET THE BAD FEELING DISPERSE, NOT GO OFF ABOUT IT, BUT YOU WOULDNT LET ME LET IT BE.
#meanwhile in minnesota#anxiety#im having a bad night and that entire exchange did NOTHING to help#i have a few hot button issues: 1) i fucking kNOW that most of the time this shit is minor#that actually makes it worse thanks but as much as it looks like ive been set off over ‘nothing’ its never nothing but the straw#2) i was raided by someone with explosive anger so i try really fucking hard to not do that#up to and including removing myself from situations immediately#*raised#but sure sometimes my childhood did feel like being held under siege
