the truth is, my biggest regret was not supporting you to the fullest. i should’ve stood by your side and not let us breakup. you’re an amazing person who deserves the world, better than what i ever gave you. i’m sorry that i couldn’t give you all of me. i just wanted more time with you. the days when i was seeing you less and less, i felt so lonely. i’m so clingy and i really wish i wasn’t but i love your presence more than anything else.
do you know how much i miss you? how much i still care for you? i know you’ll never get to this piece i write but just know that deep down inside my heart, you’re still buried deep. if you ever happen to see this, don’t forget me ever. please. i know that’s selfish to ask because you have so many things going on with your life as of the moment but i don’t think i can ever forget about you. there’s not a day when i don’t think about you. when i’m studying or i’m in classes, my mind traces back to your name. your soul is haunting but addicting. the sadness i have inside me is something i can’t empty out into the vast oceans.
yes, i haven’t healed truly. if i could take you back in my life, seeing you in my arms and feeling your kisses once more then i’d be the happiest girl in the world. i think my sweetest memory of you was when i first met you at the pool, you almost fell off the chair as i happened to be there. you were staring at me for too long and i kind of ran away that day but came back to say hi to you. we got closer, talked all day and night on the phone. i remember falling asleep on the phone with your calls. we saw each other at campus everyday.. then, you practically became my best friend, the shoulder that i can cry on without judging me, i told you all my problems and everything about me.
little did i know is that, i fell in love with you that i no longer became afraid of rejection. i told you my feelings and you asked me out.. that was one of the best days of my life. i wish i could rewrite things i shouldn’t have said but i can’t go back in time and change what’s happened between us.
just like anyone else, we’ve made mistakes. many mistakes we’re not proud of. though, i can’t keep fronting as if you’re not an important person in my life, because damn, you are. you’re my everything, jeffrey. and you’ll always be the one for me. so please come back?
