sometimes i honestly really think about what we could have been you know? I really wish you would have kept choosing me over her. Honestly, she was suppose to be my best friend but i mean i guess you can’t really tell who you hang around. She’s a 2 faced bitch. She’s just at fault as you are here. She backstabbed me. She said she wouldn’t even try and go for you and she completely went behind my back and did it anyway. And you hurt me so bad. You didn’t respect me at all. I shouldn’t even be hurt by this because you’re such an asshole but i really did like you and cared for you and i thought you did the same for me but i guess now. I guess I was blinded by my affection for you. I guess I was super fucking dumb huh. I really hope you guys are happy together because im still miserable as ever. I can’t fucking get over you and I don’t know why. I have ad dreams about you non stop which is rare because i never have dreams about guys I like. I don’t know why you were so special? Because you were a piece of shit asshole dick oh my god I can’t even fathom into words how much I hate you, and hate her too.I hate her so much. I’m so glad I don’t have to see her dumb pathetic face. I’ve never hated someone as much as I do hate her. And you too. Fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you so god damn much. You didn’t care about me at all , you sure did care about my body though huh. You said you and her connected better, was it because she was more sexual than I was? Was it because she would change infront of you and I wouldn’t? I respected myself too much to just let you see everything and get everything so fast. I had made a promise to myself to not be the old alanna that I use to be. I made a promise to myself that I wouldn’t give it up all so fast. And I kept it and look what it got me. I contemplated giving it up for you and im so fucking glad I didn’t. This is so pointless all of this is. You’re pointless. I fucking hate your guts. I hope I never see you again.
