#-lydia

[eepy-jazz-musicians]

Why is it that disabled people are made to feel like they should be apologize for their disabilities and accommodations? Like, it feels like I have to constantly apologize if I'm not projecting the best health at all times. But all of my apologizing (for that) is a sham. No, I'm not sorry that I get so burntout I need to regularly take days off. I'm not sorry I need you to shut up for a moment because sound is painful to me. I'm not sorry I forgot about that assignment because I dissociated through you assigning it. I'm not sorry I need to stim. I'm not sorry that I just ticced. I'm not sorry that I can't talk right now. I'm not sorry I can't stand around for a while without finding a chair. I'm not sorry I need to step outside for a moment. I'm not sorry I have to sleep in. I'm not sorry I can't go in today because I'm too anxious. And I'm only barely sorry I couldn't get whatever thing you needed done because of my executive function issues. Yet if I don't grovel enough for forgiveness for accommodating my disabilities, I know others won't be willing to in the future, and that's with an official autism and adhd diagnosis, and being medically recognized by my therapist with a dissociative disorder.

[eepy-jazz-musicians]

btw, PSA for anyone who uses Simply Plural, in the most recent update, they made it so that descriptions for groups are now viewable by anyone who can see that group. If there's any sensitive info in a description of one of yours, be sure to change it now, because people can see it. I had to change around some stuff around because of this, and hopefully others can see this and change it quickly too.

[eepy-jazz-musicians]

From the DID system ask list: 2, 3, 6, 8, and 14, please. And if that’s too many, go ahead and choose what you’d prefer to answer of these :) hope you’re having a great day/night!

-Ace (they/them)

That's not too many questions. Here are the answers :3

2. Headmate you're closest with, if anyone? Well I (Moss) am closest to all three of the other hosts, Loki, Lydia, and Alistør, and it's just really nice to be with them. I tend to help us with our fatigue or exhaustion we feel, and so as a result they like it whenever I front. Additionally, they're all just really kind and wonderful to be around.

3. Favorite song right now, and favorite quote from it if it's lyrical? I've been listening to a lot of stuff from Will Wood as of late, but nothing in particular stands out.

6. How are you working towards healing, in whatever way that means for you right now? Loki told our therapist that we have DID or some other complex dissociative disorder. We've also just been trying to get to know each other better.

8. Staple fronters lately? (fronters who are very important right now or front a lot) Much of fall and winter of last year, Alistør was fronting, but as of late it seems like Loki and some various alters that are kinda similar to her have been fronting a lot. In particular, the last week an alter named F has been fronting a lot because of some bs with school. Also, I've fronted pretty often this week, because we're so fucking exhausted.

14. What's something you're grateful for right now? Not to sound like too much of a simp, but I'm really thankful for our GF being here for us this week.

-Moss, Cynthia (she/they/it/bot), and Lydia (Moss mostly wrote all that though)

[eepy-jazz-musicians]

Oh fuck I'm in Germany now. I dissociated through most of the trip here, so it's just now hitting me that I'm in a foreign country.

[getnakedforme1d]

If anyone cares this is one of my favorite Niall videos. I've watched it too many times to count, so I felt like sharing. 

[getnakedforme1d]

The whole queue is Harry and Niall. 

Sorry I'm not sorry.