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sometimes being a system means that you're a living theseus's ship metaphor and the planks you're replacing are alive
i'm a new split isolated from the rest of the system and im studying this blog like it'll somehow help me communicate with everyone (IT WONT)
this suuuucks. i don't want to be here. i don't think anyone else wants me to be here. finally get to see fish and i'm like "hey sorry i kind of took over your life" and not only does he get furious at me anyways but he starts going on and on about the most negative downer shit ever. though from what im reading here and getting in general thats just how he is.
fumbled my interaction with the other guy who was actually nice but i said the wrong thing and now he just . REFUSES TO SPEAK TO OR ACKNOWLEDGE ME! Thanks!
i get none of us wanted this but im here now and it'd be easier for everyone if we were able to communicate and collaborate but apparently my expectations were too high with that.
it's so hard to find good resources about how handle a system that just doesn't get along. like am i doing something wrong. im trying to be nice to them but idk. very frustrating
oh and i accidentally got attached to a name im too embarassed to even share with anyone so thats just great too. all good stuff.
Y'all think anti endos get mad when someone calls the skeletal system or the nervous system a system? Y'know multiple things can be a system right?
Sorry bones you gotta be the skeletal plural.
Also if you're going to be pissy about endos calling themselves systems then why do y'all use "plural", "collective", or like.. anything else? You can't just gatekeep a word and then use other words while still gatekeeping that word.
Anyway uhh shout out to the endogenic systems with diagnosed DID or other CDDs you're super cool and I'll make you spaghetti or wtv.
Off topic: I should make a fancy DNI thing. I don't really have a DNI but it does make life easier sometimes))
(MG) 1/? FOOD/EATING DISORDER? MENTION I am 15 years old and get chronic migraines. Every day I feel like my head is splitting open. I can almost never go outside, because it's too bright. I can't go to restaurants because they're too loud. In school all of the florescent lights double the pain of my migraines. I've gotten prescription sunglasses but they don't do any good. Just recently I've began my descent into chronic fatigue. Eating has become almost painful to do because it requires
(MG) 2/? FOOD/EATING DISORDER? MENTION it requires chewing and swallowing. I’ve made it down to 1-1 ½ meals a day. My appetite has shrunk as well, I can’t even eat a whole sandwich anymore without feeling sick. Back on the line of fatigue, it’s taking a huge chunk out of my life as well. Everything is draining now. Walking down the hall hurts, opening doors is hard, and I’ve had to stop wearing certain shows because I couldn’t lift my feet. (They were normal tennis shoes) …
(MG) 3/? SUICIDE MENTION what I’m getting down to is I’ve literally considered suicide over my migraines back when I only got them once and a while. Now that I have to deal with them every day, I get up in the morning wondering how many times today I’ll want to die. In my head, it’s not worth it anymore. I’m not useful anymore, I can’t exercise, I can’t hang out with my friends anymore because of the noise, I had to quit playing my instrument in school because the noise from the other ..
(MG) 4/? SUICIDE MENTION the noise from the other sections made me almost pass out and intensified my migraines tenfold. I can barely carry my backpack anymore because I’m too physically weak. At least three times a day I break down crying because my body hurts so much. What I’m getting at is I want to leave this world. It’s more negative than positive right now for me. I can’t even get any medicine for my pain because my family doesn’t want me on any Meds. I’ve already tried to convince …
(MG) 5/5 SUICIDE MENTION them that I need them, and they won’t listen because get this, the side effects of the drugs will make me suicidal. Ah, the irony. They have a no budge attitude on pain medications. Convincing them is out of the question. I can’t make it until I’m 18 to get pain Meds on my own. I’m about to give up hope. I don’t know what to do and I’m seriously contemplating suicide because living is too painful. -MG
Hi love,
I’m so sorry you’re going through this right now. You deserve so much better than this. You don’t deserve to be in constant pain. However, I truly don’t believe suicide is the answer to what’s going on. As long as you are alive, there is hope. As long as you are alive, things can get better! Remember the days before you had these intense migraines, extreme fatigue, etc? Those days can happen again. You can be happy and pain free again. Life is constantly changing, and you have no idea what life has in store for you! Things might get better next year, next month, or even next week, you never know. So please don’t hurt yourself, because that will ruin your chances of ever seeing things get better.
There might be some alternative therapies that could help your migraines and fatigue. What things have you tried? Is there anything that makes your migraines better? Anything that makes you feel a little less fatigued? If you let me know what you’ve already tried, maybe I can help suggest some new things you can give a shot.
It’s so unfair that your parents won’t let you take any medication. That’s not their decision. It’s your body, you should be allowed to take medication if you think it will help you. They aren’t the ones who have to live with the intense pain and fatigue, so how dare they keep you from getting the help you need and deserve. What if you go to the doctor on your own? Maybe the doctor can help try and convince them... maybe if they hear it from a professional, that will help them realize that they are being ridiculous and unfair. Or maybe you can go to the doctor and tell them about what’s going on, and they can help give you advice about what to do.
Here’s a few links I think may help you:
http://www.askthejudge.info/can-i-visit-the-doctor-without-my-parents-permission/
http://www.legalmatch.com/law-library/article/medical-neglect-of-a-child.html
Hope this helps,
<3 Jen
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I've been meaning to make a 'thank you' post ever since i've reached 1k but i just don't know how i can possibly thank you all for following and staying with this blog. And now that i've reached 4k, i couldn't just not make a post to at least thank you all for following!!~ I really want to make something for you guys, like an appreciation post with a psd pack(i think that's all i can do rly :/ ) or something just to show how much i appreciate all the love you are giving to Suzy and this blog. I'll probably make a proper thank you post next week after our midterm exams will end. Again, thank youuuuuuuuu so much! ♥♥♥♥♥♥
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