one of the most interesting things, at least in my opinion, about having a personality disorder is being able to find things in media that feel like targeted attacks (for lack of a better term), but i’m gonna talk about music, specifically will wood because i love will wood
first of all, to point out the obvious, “…and if i did, you deserved it” is very clearly about narcissism. you’d know that just by looking at the title, which is from a poem called “the narcissists prayer” (although that poem isn’t the greatest, and the reception of it is even worse considering people use it as an excuse to shit on ppl with a trauma based disorder, but that’s a tangent for another day). it is genuinely one of, if not THE most accurate portrayal of npd i’ve ever seen, at least when it comes to my personal experience. it’s not just “oh la la la i’m the best!!!!” it delves into the darker side of narcissism, the self loathing, because you’re not good enough. the lyrics “and if looks could kill i’d be staring in the mirror, even more than i already would, ‘cause man, i’m lookin’ good!” remind me of conflicting ego states, specifically narc highs and crashes. he really hit the nail on the head.
but that’s not all, of course he had to make a song that perfectly encompasses bpd as well!!! in my humble (and correct /silly) opinion, “against the kitchen floor” does an absolutely incredible job of highlighting my bpd experience. some lyrics include:
“i could hold your hand but keep you at arms length” “that morbid sort where even company can’t cure me and the more you reassure, the less i trust” “i’m catatonic in your arms, crying, ‘how did i cause so much harm?’” and “i’m down pounding my head against the kitchen floor, apologizing for my life and ever entering yours.”
there’s more but i’ve already written so much 😭 it’s really refreshing to see accurate and respectful portrayals of personality disorders in media (even if that wasn’t his explicit goal with “against the kitchen floor”) sorry for yapping so much, just wanted to share my thoughts :3
and who knows? maybe this rant will get someone into will wood, lol. he’s been a comfort artist for me for years so hopefully that can be the case for someone else
ONCE AGAIN I AM SO SORRY ABOUT HOW LONG IT IS LOLLL
Don’t worry about rambling! I don’t mind at all. Rambling is encouraged here, say whatever you want