is it normal for fictionfolk to find their names a bit.. idk how to describe it, like that isn't you, in a way
and bear with me for a sec bc it does sound absurd. i know, it's strange, because huh?? that is you, 100% you, but the image that the name evokes isn't you, in a way
i have this feeling where i can't refer to myself as kokichi or bill, just ouma and cipher. cipher because i fucking hate the name bill, it's too human, too generic, and in my canon i had a whole thing with feeling powerless and anything that made me too vulnerable/human-like/uninspiring made me feel like shit, so yeah, makes sense. but kokichi? it's weird. it's really weird. but like, it's just the ko part. i like kichi, it's nice, it fits me. kokichi? no, it's weird. and i don't fucking know why
and it's coincidental bc these two are the most distant canon i have, from like, actual canon. maybe i just had another name and i don't remember either, who knows
kin feelings are weird, dude