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100 days of Headcanons ||  Day 8: Loss

Connor has experienced loss in a lot of ways. Starting with the loss of his first mission, resulting in the loss of the child called Emma. This is a partially hard loss for him, mainly because of how indifferent he felt about it at the time. He had done the best he could at the time and the unit was simply to unstable to be dealt with properly but experience comes with age and the more cases he did after being reassigned, the more he realized his failure during his first mission was unacceptable because he failed to use other means in which to secure his success. Emma’s death now haunts him to the point that he refuses to do anything on his ‘birthday.’ It is a day in which a life was loss at his own hands and celebrating him being alive is simply an insult. He will take an hour of his day to visit her grave and leave flowers.

He’s also experienced a loss of self. He was once a deviant hunter but after deviation and having only been alive for 3 months, he’s not sure what he’s supposed to be. This has not changed almost 3 years later, he’s watched countless people grow and find their place in the world and he still feels as lost and more alone then ever.

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100 days of Headcanons || Day 7: Hope

Connor hopes for a lot of things. To one day fell accepting among everyone. To one day feel happy and content with his life. To one day make peace with himself. To one day be the person he’s desperately trying to portray, a kind, good hearted person that wants to bring hope and safety to people. 

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100 days of Headcanons ||  Day 6: Weakness

Connor’s ability to over think and over analyze a situation can be his biggest weakness. This isn’t in terms of a moment but rather if given enough time. He’ll take the information that is given to him and make the appropriate judgement but if given enough time, he’ll start to doubt his judgement and come up with alternative conclusions and settle on a far more unlikely scenario. 

A scenario that I can thing of was his brothers wedding. He offered to find and pay for the cake because it was a highly stressed over item that Caleb was willing to call off the wedding too. he took on this responsibility without a second thought.

Later when the wedding date came closer he started to doubt himself. What if the cake comes out awful? What if something happens to the cake? what if Caleb resents him for stepping in and taking control instead of offering to take responsibility for the cake? Am I causing Caleb to much trouble? does he even still want me to be there? Did Caleb take care of the cake anyway and not tell me? Does he even still want me there? All questions that passed through his head without Caleb even hinting at the idea he was upset because while Connor can make good decisions, he’s been conditioned into believing they where the wrong ones to make, making it easy for him to doubt himself.

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100 days of Headcanons ||  Day 5: Strength

Connor’s strength is his determination. When he sets out to get something done, he’ll get it done, almost to a fault and nothing will stand in his way to achieve it, when looking back on it now, is a thought that scares him. 

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100 days of Headcanons || Day 4: Smile

Connor’s smiles are very subtle and very far between. The more confused and conflicted he becomes, the less reasons he has to smile. He’s very much the type of person that will return what is shown to him in return so while he does make an effort to be nice to people, if your not nice to him, he won’t be nice in back. Because of this, Connors more often left questioning his surrounds and picks up on the things he doesn’t like.

The things that would make him smile are things he also deems unrealistic and dangerous, such as traveling and speeding down a highway. Connor is very good at what he does and because he’d good at what he does, he feels accomplished and proud but the thing he’s good at are things people used and still hate him for. So be it chasing bad guys as aa police officer or throwing out the rule book and doing it his way as a bounty hunter, both jobs leave him more often conflicted then happy.

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100 days of Headcanons ||   Day 3: Dreams

Currently and for the longest time, Connor wants to travel and wants to travel the world. He would love nothing more then to travel to each and every country in the world. Spend maybe a month or more taking in the local attractions and the not so local attractions. One of the major things that is stopping him is that, this is an adventure he’s not willing to do by himself. He knows he’d have much more fun e exploring the world if he had someone by his side but this is a time constraint that not everyone shares and doesn’t ask anyone, already knowing what the answer will be. For now. he’ll keep himself content with travel magazines before fully committing to something and leaving to do it on his own.

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100 days of Headcanons ||  Day 2: Family

In his main canon, Connor’s family consists of Caleb, ( @9th-in-a-line ) Gavin, Suzi, ( @an-unlikely-duo ) and Connie. ( @detective-rk400 ) At the same time, because of Caleb, Sixty and Nines are kind of counted as extended family. which also varies because verses. where sixty would be counted as a twin and maybe nines as calebs twin or a cousin. 

For the most part Connor is part of the main family but because Caleb married Gavin, Suzi asked Caleb to adopt her and Caleb adopted Connie... despite technically becoming an uncle, he still feels left out at times. Which thats his own problem he has to work through.

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100 days of Headcanons ||  Day 1: Childhood

Well, for obvious reasons Connor’s an android going on three years old as an adult so we’ll use the human verse.

Connor doesn’t remember his birth parents, having been given up at the age of two with his twin brother. As far back as he could remember, it’s always been Amanda who’s taken care of them and despite arguments about wanting to know his real birth parents, it’s was always a closed topic with her and all he could gather from it is that she might have been a close friend of theirs or took particular interest in there case, given that a year later she also adopted another child who was said to be his younger brother (Caleb) and then several yeas later adopted another brother (Connie), making them your blood relatives from the same parents, which only caused a deep feeling of unworthiness. 

Growing up under Amanda’s care wasn’t horrible, she did her best but with her teaching style parenting and pushing for him to be better, to set a good example and to work harder caused him to have anxiety, much to the point that he constantly second guessed himself and started to rebel secretly to have a sense of control. It started with smoking and once she passed suddenly when he was 18, she left them with nothing but a sense of responsibility to keep each other together as a family.

As a means of survival each of them secretly did what was necessary to make ends meet in their bad economy. He stole and short changed people to make money. His twin catfish people to pay the bills  and his younger brother had a sugerdaddy. All of which they kept from one another and lied about there professions before being driven in the direction of the police academy.