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[bah-avenue]

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Contents : {Forsaken} Mafioso fictive. Anger Holder.

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⠀name{s} ﹔ Mafioso ; Capo ; Rook ; Vell ; Blackjack ⠀nickname{s} ﹔ Mafi ⠀age ﹔ 28 ⠀mental maturity ﹔ 20s ⠀gender ﹔ agender ; cismale ⠀pronouns ﹔ he/him ; bun/buns ; it/its ; lead/leds ⠀orientation / sexuality ﹔ greyromantic ⠀species ﹔ robloxian ; bunny ⠀amory ﹔ non-partnering

⠀role{s} ﹔ anger holder ; enforcer ; intimidator ⠀sign off / emojis ﹔ —M ; ♠ ; 🐇 ; 💣 ; 🩸 ; 🚬 ⠀source{s} ﹔ Forsaken {Roblox} ⠀source connection ﹔ decently close (by about 70%)

⠀acute stress response⠀﹔ fight ⠀front trigger{s} ﹔ disrespect ; interruption ; being talked over ; power imbalance ; injustice ; perceived incompetence ; mockery ⠀front sign{s} ﹔ foot stomping ; jaw clenching ; volume spike ; shortened sentences ; increased profanity

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Electric Violet Red Berry (#6b01fb to #000008)

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Black Red Berry (#000000 to #000008)

[bah-avenue]

Hi! Hi! Hello!! Could we request the streets level of Mafioso, please? Many thanks and have a good timezone!

He will be posted soon.

[looselypenned]

Possession

Thought is a war that you have with yourself

Am I just the ghost, or also the shell?

Haunted by blood as I lay down to rest

Can you hear my mind with your head to my chest?

In darkness with arms wrapped around you so tight

Join me in stillness to take in the light

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[letters-from-r]

Am I reverting to my old self?

Lately I’ve been very iffy about my academics; specifically, about actually doing all the homeworks and the papers. 

This is bad---real bad. I am losing motivation to study. But don’t get me wrong, I love to learn new things and I like to listen to the lecture during class. It’s the requirements I’m having a problem with. And I’ve had this problem before. I know that the solution is time management. I just... don’t want to do it anymore. 

Again, this is bad. Maybe this is just a bump in the road (at least, I’m hoping that it’s just that) and maybe I’ll get back to the daily grind soon. I know that this will be a crucial time for me; it’s sort of a ‘make it or break it’ situation, I guess. I can let this go on for longer and I’ll eventually revert back to my old lazy self or I can force myself to just do it right now and get back on getting that bread. We shall see.

I’m honestly only writing this because I have an exam tomorrow and I’m very good at procrastinating. To be completely honest, I don’t even need to review. I’m actually doing pretty good at the subject. But not reviewing makes me feel like I’m falling behind. I don’t know. Maybe it’s my subconscious telling me I actually need to review. 

Anyway, ‘til next time (when I feel like procrastinating again). 

Adios,

R.