#01182018

[sincerelyegg]

Day 1114: getting into chalk art y’all

[edlabuchorva]

I had a mini talk with Kuya Mike yesterday. It’s a casual one leaping from work to opening experiences to one another. It made me ease and dump all thoughts I had in my busy mind.

He first asked how was I doing for weeks both in professional and personal aspects. I admitted that I have difficult times as the system’s changed as we started of 2018. I also shared my frustrations with him like how I can start a basic conversation as I am having a hard time doing that, and he gave me tips. I also shared what I would like to achieve as a person, for instance, participating a statistical training which will be lead by PSRTI. He offered me to go to training and in return, I will be sharing what I have learned to my colleagues. It’s like basically tutoring, but we at the company called it cross-learning collaboration. I quivered as self-doubts pull me back.

First off, I told him the training’s too pricey. He didn’t care as he smiled at me and told me that he has plans for me. He also added that Miss Kat has plans for me as well, and it made me nervous and challenged even more. As I thought of it in bed, I worried leaving my work behind for the training. Like, I would always go half day as I attend the training. I worried about my team especially in research aspects. Half of me says, “Pursue it cos you will miss the opportunity if you keep hiding in your shell.” Further, I worried I may not disseminate what I learned to my colleagues clearly. I am aware that most of them hate statistics stuff but is essential in research. The challenge is how will I get them into learning stat stuff when I am aware that they hate it, what would be the easier way to teach them?

But, despite all of my what-ifs bothering my disorganized mind, I am already weighting my decisions and might give it a try. It’s for my growth anyways.

[na-page]

Darren Criss for W Magazine 2018 | Photographed by Michael Beckert

[peachesannndgravy]

Song of the Day

I’m nearly catching up. So, we go from Tim Burton’s film to The Beach Boys. They are very underrated. Ironically, The Beatles kept competing with them to write the better album because they inspired each other. Here’s one of the Beach Boys’ hits.

The Beach Boys -- Little Deuce Coupe

[yournursetobe]

Holding hands, watching the stars while wasting friday night together✨💛 hey, love, I’m thanking all my stars to have found you.🌠💫⭐️ #home #bliss #01182018

[myssminga]

Aye Yo Birthday Girl! #gogirlitsyabirthday #sayah #hey #oohh #look #likewhoa #birthdaygirl #saycheese #whoknew #doit #mingababy #2018 #myssminga #01182018 #inkandivy #clt

[karmyyyy]

Drowning in my sea of thoughts

"Andito lang naman ako. Pwede mo naman ishare sakin yon"

Hindi ko alam bakit pero may mga bagay talagang hindi ko kayang masabi sayo; mga bagay na hindi ko kayang aminin sayo; mga problemang hindi ko kayang ishare sayo. Na kahit alam ko namang nandiyan ka para intindihin ako, eh hindi ko pa rin magawa. Hindi dahil sa wala akong tiwala sayo. Siguro kasi hindi lang ako sigurado kung maiintindihan mo ba talaga. Hindi ko sigurado kung maiintindihan mo talaga yung bigat na nararamdaman ko, yung kung gano ba talaga kabigat to. Sobrang bigat ng nararamdaman ko, na ako mismo nanghihina at nahihirapan ilabas yun. Para bang kahit gustuhin kong ilabas siya, mas pipiliin ko pa rin yung itago nalang kasi sa tuwing susubukan kong ilabas, manghihina lang ako. Kaya pasensya ka na kung sa tuwing iiyak ako, walang salitang lumalabas. Pasensya ka na kung sa bawat pag iyak ko, ang tanging naririnig mo ay yung mga hagulgol at paghabol ko sa hininga. Pero sana alam mo rin na sa bawat pag iyak ko, para ko na ring inaahon yung sarili ko sa pagkakalunod sa mga bagay at ideyang kung bumuhos ay parang bagyo.

[myssminga]

Google even has Birthday 🎂 candles for me today! Thanks Google #hbd #google #weather # winter #snow #queenelsa #frozen #frozennotthemovie #icecold #birthdaygirl #myssminga #fun #01182018 #today #15 #cake #candles