#022712

[raechelkate]

Not talking doesn't feel right. Holding back doesn't feel right. Wish I could just tell you how I feel or what's on my mind but we rarely understand each other. Time doesn't fix something though. It's what we do with that time. Meehh not used to not saying what I want to say.. /:

[daisychaindoll]

I'm home!

POG, malasadas, and doggin' on my brother for stealing my SWORD for his little spirit week costume. Rude.

Thank Jesus.

First class was funnnnn. Straight up #princessproblems, though. Yikes.

Ok. Shower. Sleep. Then a whirlwind to conquer. Meh.

Goodnight :)

[heylib]

022712

wifee: *looking at my two different earrings*

wifee: whoa you have a mole on your ear!

wifee: that's so cute! :D

[raechelkate]

Feel like my emotions are being fucked with and it's not a very good time for that at the moment. I don't even know how to trust people anymore, let alone you, so I'm a bit bewildered as to why..you're doing what you're attempting to do. You don't know what you had. And if you do, I would love to hear what it was, or perhaps still is. But honestly it's buried in deceit and misconstrued words and angry feelings soo..I don't feel it's my job to unbury it anymore. Time for everyone else to try for a change. And if you already did, try harder. Cuz I do that everyday til something's a success. Even a little thing.

[raechelkate]

"You hang in there for her no matter how hard it gets."

Basically. 

[gainingclarityandmovingforward]

You were in my dream the other day,

I wrote about it on my other blog.  LOL. I have too many blogs to keep track of. So shame. Xanga status.

I miss you so much. I'm sorry for your loss. I know that being sorry doesn't change anything. I know that I'm selfish for wanting to be the person you go to when you don't know who else to turn to.

I thought that you would reach out to me and tell me what's been going on. I mean, I assume that you assume that I know what's going on because I camp out on your tumblr, but I wanted you to tell me. I wanted you to open up to me. And I wanted to help you get better. Or help to make you feel better.

I know what it's like. Not completely. I haven't experienced the same exact situation, but I have experienced things similar. 

I'm sorry I didn't realize that you were reaching out to me that night. I'm sorry I'm so egocentric and stuck on myself. I feel horrible about it. I had a chance to fix all the stupid shit I did and I blew it to bits. I'm so sorry. :/

I don't know how I can make this up to you. Or if I can even kinda make it up to you. :/

I've been missing you a lot lately.  I can't go a day without texting you. My hope is that you don't forget that I haven't forgotten you. My hope is that you smile when you see my text, just because I thought of you. My hope is that you don't delete the message as soon as you get it.

I miss you, friend. I miss you, Love. I miss you.

And I love you. Please stay strong. I'm here for you always.