#03142022

[hella-kitty6669]

Dirty30 🇲🇽 🍾

[diaryofamixedchicc]

A lot can happen in 2 years.

It’s so rare that I come on here anymore but it’s such a great escape to let all my feelings out there. I just finished reading my 2010 decade post and boy in the 2 years that followed has been crazy. So where to begin…

First off the pandemic ! That was insane. Still is insane! Literally I finished my masters degree at the beginning of March. Went to San Diego to celebrate my achievement and then when I came back I started working from home. Okay working from home was wild ! I can’t even lie to y’all I was soooo freaking unproductive lol I was watching tv napping and just eating. Pretty sure I gained about 30 lbs during the pandemic. But who didn’t lol really not much happened until we get to the end of the year. Lots of chilling at home, couch dates with my boyfriend and Costco runs.

Now, towards the end of 2020 I was in search of a new position because I already got my masters and k felt as though I should put it to use since it cost me $25,000… and of course I kept my eyes open in infection prevention because I was already in that department. And voilà, a senior analyst position opened up. I went for it and boy did I crush it. Mainly because the director already knew me so we both knew it would be a perfect fit. And you know what it has! I’ve been at this position for almost a year and a half and I love it. I’ve really acclimated myself into this world now my next stop on the career ladder is to be an infection preventionist. That will take some more time and the right position being open for me. But fingers crossed.

And now the not so fun stuff. Loss. In 2021, my dad passed away. It has been so tough for me to process this because we did not have the best relationship. But I have chosen to let go of any anger I held towards him for leaving me as a child. Now I always look back on all the fun memories we had and the longer he’s been gone the more I miss him. Sigh. And on top of that our roommate that was leaving with us died of cancer. I wasn’t really close to her but it was definitely sad and the house felt empty. I’m still adjusting to it being just me and my mom because I have been getting a lot of sleep anxiety, mainly when I’m home alone. Last week my mom was gone the whole week and it was absolute hell for me. I would take my melatonin pills so I could knock out around 10. The problem with me is that I get scared with noises in my house , maybe it’s because I’ve seen too many scary movies. But the point is when I start hearing noises I start to freak out and then it just spirals out of control. One night I went to sleep crying because I was so scared which is sad because I literally had checked all the doors multiple times and I even lock my bedroom door at night. I don’t know what’s been going on but when my mom is home I’m not as scared and can fall asleep regularly but I still will probably need melatonin.

That was a lot. But here’s some good news ! I am a house owner ! Now it’s the house we’ve lived in before but that place is in my name now. Honestly the process wasn’t that fun but is it ever really ? It was so stressful and the way it was brought about to me. We were renting my house for the past 9 years and our landlord decided she wanted to sell it. And so it was kind of a buy the house or move out situation. It really put a dent in my own plans of getting a first house so processing the thought of buying a house I didn’t really want was a hard to swallow pill. But at the end of the day it’s best for me and my mom now. And I look forward to seeing all the benefits of home owning aka getting hella tax refunds next year!

After all the weight gain from 2020 it didn’t stop in 2021. But this year I’m trying again. I feel like I’ve made so many posts about me going on another weight loss journey and I’m really trying to do thing differently and so far it seems to be working because I’ve lost 15 lbs for the year already (3 months in) the biggest thing I’m working on is sugar and health choices. I have tremendously cut back on my sugar intake - sugar free drinks, alternatives. And yes I know sometimes it may still be bad for you but isn’t everything bad for you when you consume too much of it. But yeah I’ve pretty much cut back on sugar. I’ve been trying to drink more water and I think I’ve been doing really good at that. The way I used to drink juice and soda is how I drink water now which is great because I drink soda like not even once a week anymore and I’ll maybe have zero sugar drinks once a week. I am drinking more coffee now but I always use like sweet n low and only one packet so I’m not going overboard. And the second thing I’ve been working on is making healthy choices. I try to eat as healthy as I can when I can. So when I go out on dates or eat out I just try to see what would the best option be for me and so far it seems to be working. I truly hope that whenever I come back here there’s been more improvements.

Saving the best for last -my relationship. Each day it grows and grows. I feel like the pandemic help put a lot of things into perspective. Especially what we want for our future. I feel great that I can be able to finally discuss these things with him because it was pretty taboo before. Our goal is to hopefully find a house sometime next year. Hoping for a marriage next year too but we shall see about that one. I mean I’ve put it all out there on the table so the ball is in his court now. I love discussing my future with him - where are we going to live, how will we raise our kids, who’s doing what chores in the house. It’s fun because I know that soon enough my hopes and dreams will come true.

Til next time,

Robin 💕

[mortifiedandawesome]

Ohhh.. today, I got that thing where my body, it's like there, again.

[mortifiedandawesome]

Slept wrong weeks ago, need to pop my neck a certain way. I CAN pop my neck, but what I pop feels like its UNDER the popping I need, and any further twisting feels like a step towards no-no-town, population: flappy boy 2000.