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Wedding Journey Part 4.

Wow we are almost a month away from my wedding ! I’m so excited, nervous, and so ready for this. There’s not too many big updates. Everyone rsvpd and we’re at about 168… it’s gonna be a rager at this point. I am in the process of getting my dress altered. It was expensive but there wasn’t really anything I can do I needed to get the work done. Next Saturday I’ll be going in for a fitting so I hope it’s perfect. Now I’m pretty much in the stage of finishing up stationary for the wedding day like menus, programs, table cards, things like that. Slowly working on that. I am in the process of finalizing our party bus for the day.

We got our marriage license last week ! It was super fast since we did everything online. We decided to get a bite at a pizza joint since Mandy was on his lunch break.

Our invites for the bridal shower is out, that was the only thing I did for it. I’m excited for that. Gonna be a fun time with my girls again.

I have been working greatly on our honeymoon itinerary and it is coming together nicely so I am very excited for that! It is gonna be the best trip we take so far.

That’s really all I can think of for now. It hasn’t truly hit me yet that the wedding is almost here. I feel like I have so much time and no more time at the same time if that makes sense.

Til next time,

Robin <3

#11232023

Wedding Journey Part 3

It's been a while. We are 3 months away from the big day! It's so exciting and I cannot believe how fast the time has flown by. Now what have I been doing? Pretty much all my vendors are locked in. I think the only vendor i'm working on left is a party bus but that shouldn't be too hard to do. So I have been working on the little tasks like our wedding slideshow and menus programs etc. So I always have little things to keep me busy. We got our hotel room blocks so that's always fun. We have about half of our RSVP's in. In November is the deadline so I will be working on the seating chart another fun thing I look forward too. Oh, we also just booked a 360 photobooth which I am very excited for.

Robin's Ratchelorette happened last weekend and I had the time of my life! It was soo much fun celebrating with all my close girlfriends and it made me so excited to get married to Mandy.

I got my wedding dress! It was interesting because they mailed it to me. When I tried it on though it was a little too tight. When I tried it on in the bridal shop it was already tight so we just assumed to go one size up but it looks more like I needed 2 sizes up. So I plan on visiting an alterations shop next week so they can loosen in and bustle my dress. I'm still debating whether I want a second dress. I think it will all depend on how the bustling goes. If i can party in it or not.

Not much to update really, other than my excitement for the wedding! Everything is all slowly coming together and it's gonna be the time of my life.

Til next time,

Robin Sanders<3

#10082023

Life Lately

I just turned 30 and life has been great so far. I feel like this is my era. My 20's were all fun and games in the beginning and towards the end of my 20's I got down to business and started getting my life together. And now I am here at 30, pretty successful in my opinion, i'm about to be a wife at the end of the year. So for me the best is yet to come and I cannot wait. so much to do and the clock is winding down. I am 4 months away from my wedding and it's so hard to believe that's going to be here soon because it still feels like yesterday I just got engaged. I can't wait to start this new life with Mandy soon <3

-Robin Sanders

#09032023

Wedding Journey Part 2

Hello Again!

We are officially 152 days out now which is less than 5 months to go! Time is moving so fast now and i’m trying to soak everything in to really enjoy this engagement because soon enough I will be a wife! I still can’t believe it sometimes.

Heres the latest updates

I got my florist vendor - FlowersbyMelis. I am really excited for this one because The flowers were definitely an investment for me but I think she is a great florist from the work i’ve seen and I think she can help bring my dreamy wedding vibes to life!

I am working on booking my MUA artists.

My Hairstylists are all booked.

We had a food tasting last which was really cool! I enjoyed all the eating! Definitely found some good contenders for the meals we want to pick. It was also kind of overwhelming because they had vendors there so there was a lot going on but it was fun overall and we may go back in October if they let us lol I think the only thing is they didn’t have a lot of options for what I was looking for because they do such a generic type of foods so I’ll have to ask them about that.

Cake tastings were fun! We had 2 - Torrance Bakery and Rossmoor Pastries. I am leaning towards Rossmoor pastries because it’s cheaper and lets be real no one really eats cake so I would rather not waste so much money on it.

Wedding Dress: I finally ordered my wedding dress after i got measured again. I should be getting that sometime in October and once I get that I’ll go get it bustled. I cannot wait to see it because when I tried it on it didn’t have the long sleeves in the store so i just hope they turn out to be what i’m looking for.

Honeymoon Planning is going amazing! I have been planning our trip very meticulously so it can be an amazing Eurotrip for us since we have both never been to Europe before. We just booked our plane tickets for the trip which was a steal tbh - in January we won a silent auction for travel certificates so we bought our Europe flights for $1096 vs $3900 we would have paid if it we didn’t have those travel certificates so that’s a win for me!

Our invitations are on the way and i’m super excited for that because I have a very specific vision to set the tone for the wedding. And i know some people don’t care for invitations but I am a very detailed oriented person and even more so for this wedding so I plan on seeing this vision through!

Those are the major updates for the wedding. This weekend we’re going on an engaged couples retreat since we’re getting married in a church which I am very excited for. I don’t really know what to expect but I can only imagine that it will be great and having lots of conversations.

Til next time,

Robin Sanders

#07312023

Wedding Journey Part 1

Hello!

Now that i am a Feyoncé, the real work begins. For those that don’t know I am huge on party planning so clearly the wedding planning is soo much fun. Lets start - So the moment i got engaged i went into planning mode. Obviously I have already been looking into venues earlier in 2022 because we already had the discussion about getting married in 2023.

Venue Hunting

So in the beginning I was considering doing a garden wedding but thinking about the time we’re getting married I don’t want to risk rain. And I also decided on a church venue because even though I don’t go to church often I still find God everywhere else and I truly believe he is present with me and my relationship with Mandy. The church we found is actually with a priest we know and love from St. Gens so I'm excited for him to marry us because I already have a relationship with the priest.

So 2 weeks after we got engaged we we’re already on the venue hunt. We went to 3 places that I had already done research on long before; Lakewood Country Club, Skylinks Country Club, Wedgewood Wedding in Downey, and Recreation Park. Let’s start with Lakewood Country club, great pricing but I did not like the reception venue at all! It had a very old looking feel to it, like it needed major renovations and it looked really small for attempting to hold 160 people... So it was an instant no for me. Now Skylinks Country Club was more my speed - The venue was really nice and looked very new /my kind of aesthetic) the pricing was great but the reception venue looked too small. And they told me how they’ve done receptions with my amount of people but I just could not picture it and with the ceiling pretty short it just felt too small to me.. So unfortunately it was another no for me. But i may look into this place for a wedding shower because that would be a great space for it.. And the last one Recreation park - I was REALLY feeling this ! The venue space was big, it had a great place for the cocktail hour, i loved the reception venue because it had an old aesthetic but where it was more of a rustic look and the pricing was great, I was really considering this place... until i had to use the bathroom (now i probably should have done this for the 1st two locations but it wouldn’t have changed my mind anyways...) OMG the bathrooms were gross, they looked like they needed major renovations. And i am very picky about small things because those are the stupid things I would remember as a guest so i would not want to put my guests into that situation. So unfortunately this place became a no. The last place we visited for that day was Wedgewood Weddings. And I had a feeling this place might have been the one. And I was right, It was almost. The venue was beautiful, the reception was nice and big, great cocktail hour locations, and good places to take wedding photos, So i was pretty much sold on the place. But then we get to the pricing and it was double the budget i was looking for. I was not about to go broke for a wedding so that was another no. And at this point i was kind of down because all of these places i had did extensive research on but seeing it in person changed my whole view of the places... So we were basically back to square one. But thank goodness for my Fiancé he could see i was disappointed so he came through with some suggestions. And believe it or not, the suggestion he gave me is the location we picked! So the next week we had looked into 3 more locations. Now mind you this was in January so it was raining like crazy and we didn’t even get to see our last venue because it was raining so hard it flooded the streets so we couldn’t get to it and never followed up on the place anyways. I won’t tell the location we picked until after the wedding but the place we did visit was the Centre in Lakewood. Now this place i liked it was huge and the whole place would be just for us.. But I hated the walls - specifically the color. And Mandy knew I wasn’t going to like it so he even asked if we could drape the walls - God Bless Him. We could drape them but it would have been 4k and I was kind of like no I don't think that's worth it. So it was another no. But the place we picked was the first spot of that day and I fell in love with it, it has a nice entrance that I know will be great for pictures, a nice space for the cocktail hour, and I loveee the grand ballroom its very spacious! And the price was right so after doing major deliberating we found our wedding venue 3 weeks into the engagement!

Other Vendors we booked already

Let’s see so in the first month we booked our Wedding Coordinator (Golden Hour Events) Thank you Patty for the recommendation, Got our DJ and phot booth thanks to UB, booked the videographer and Photographer (A Touch of Soul Productions) Thank you Melissa for the recommendation. I think those are the major vendors we needed already.

Wedding Dress Shopping

I found my dress 3 months into my engagement! I went to 2 place; Luv Bridal and Cocomelody. I went to Luv Bridal with my bridesmaids and family which was a fun experience as a first time dress shopper. They had snacks and drinks for us which is always great. So my stylist took my measurements and we went over what I'm looking for. things i like, don’t like, etc. so she had 4 dresses for me to try on, there was really one that I liked and the pricing was decent but i didn’t want to make any decisions until i went to Cocomelody because I had a feeling that would be the place I would find my dress. So I went to Cocomelody with my mom, aunt and MOH. I think we tried on 5-6 dresses? It all becomes a blur at this point. So we get to dress number 3 and i felt something. I was like hmmm this dress might be something, but the problem was it didn’t fit so it was hard to tell if i really did like it but thankfully they had a bigger size for me to try on. When i tried on the bigger size i was definitely feeling it, but i was concerned about the sleeves because there wasn't any and I'm very self conscious about my arms. So I kept trying on dresses and nothing was really wowing me but i still had my eye on the 3rd one. So i talked to the stylist about the 3rd dress and asked her if we can add sleeves and she said yes. So we started working with the manager which pretty much sold me on the dress and just like that I had a wedding dress! I will get fitted in July so that gives me some time to start getting snatched. I’m super excited for the dress, every now and then I just look at the pictures, Makes me want to get married already!

What’s Next

About 8 months to go! We are working on sending Save the Dates, Food Tastings in the Summer, booking all the little details later in the year. The best part about booking all the big vendors early in the year, i have been pretty much stress free in regards to the wedding. I guess we can check back in the summer and see how that works...

TIl Next Time,

Robin Dorita Sanders (Lopez) 12.30.23

#04282023

A new Journey

My life changed on December 23, 2022. It was a regular day. I went home early to get ready for a Christmas dinner date night with Mandy at Lawrys. We wanted to make it an annual tradition for Christmas. As I got ready, I thought to myself “I wonder if tonight is the night I’ll get proposed to?” It was such a common question I would think to myself so I said nahhhhh probably not and I kept getting ready anyways. I put the question to the back of my mind. As I got to dinner I couldn’t help but look at Mandy’s pockets and check for a ring box, I only saw his wallet so I said okay this is just a regular date night and kept it moving.

We had an amazing dinner of course with lots of fun conversations and laughs. As we got ready to leave he asked if I wanted to pasyal (walk around) Beverly Hills on Rodeo drive. Now my first thought was hmmm that’s random, but also I’ve never been there before and I had nothing to do so I didn’t mind being out late so I said sure let’s go and didn’t think too much into it. Now Mandy is smart, I’m very easily distracted so he basically turned this into a mini photoshoot for me and you know I won’t turn down some new picture for my instagram feed.

Now we walk around and land back at this Christmas tree. We’re chatting it up and he says to me “I think we should make some new memories here.” Me still being clueless I’m thinking yeah let’s take some more pictures. And here we go …

“I think it’s time for this”

“Time for what”

… pulls a box out of his pocket 💍

I immediately start crying because I am now aware of what is happening! It’s the moment I’ve been waiting for the moment I met this man.

“I think it’s time for me to do this”

After I semi pull myself together and stop the ugly Kim k crying he gets down on one knee.

“Robin, Will you marry me?”

It’s funny because when i finally get to this moment I am just still in pure shock thinking to myself omg it’s finally happening !

With tears in my eyes I say YES and he puts the ring on my finger 🥹😭

MORE CRYING …

And now more pictures but with the RING 💍

Yasssss girls - He did a good job! What a way to go into Christmas! It is now a holiday I will never forget now. It has officially been a month and it’s so crazy wrapping my mind around the fact that I am engaged to the man of my dreams, the man I prayed to God for. At the end of the year we will marry in front of all of our friends and family and I could not be more excited for that moment !

Now y’all know me - I am a planner ! That type A organized girl, so you best believe the planning is in full force. We found our Church, our Reception Venue, a DJ, Wedding Coordinator and the rest of the vendors I have in mind are already lined up to contact. We have a long way to go but December will be here in a blink of an eye.

Until Then,

Robin Sanders (Future Lopez) <3

#01232023

A lot can happen in 2 years.

It’s so rare that I come on here anymore but it’s such a great escape to let all my feelings out there. I just finished reading my 2010 decade post and boy in the 2 years that followed has been crazy. So where to begin…

First off the pandemic ! That was insane. Still is insane! Literally I finished my masters degree at the beginning of March. Went to San Diego to celebrate my achievement and then when I came back I started working from home. Okay working from home was wild ! I can’t even lie to y’all I was soooo freaking unproductive lol I was watching tv napping and just eating. Pretty sure I gained about 30 lbs during the pandemic. But who didn’t lol really not much happened until we get to the end of the year. Lots of chilling at home, couch dates with my boyfriend and Costco runs.

Now, towards the end of 2020 I was in search of a new position because I already got my masters and k felt as though I should put it to use since it cost me $25,000… and of course I kept my eyes open in infection prevention because I was already in that department. And voilà, a senior analyst position opened up. I went for it and boy did I crush it. Mainly because the director already knew me so we both knew it would be a perfect fit. And you know what it has! I’ve been at this position for almost a year and a half and I love it. I’ve really acclimated myself into this world now my next stop on the career ladder is to be an infection preventionist. That will take some more time and the right position being open for me. But fingers crossed.

And now the not so fun stuff. Loss. In 2021, my dad passed away. It has been so tough for me to process this because we did not have the best relationship. But I have chosen to let go of any anger I held towards him for leaving me as a child. Now I always look back on all the fun memories we had and the longer he’s been gone the more I miss him. Sigh. And on top of that our roommate that was leaving with us died of cancer. I wasn’t really close to her but it was definitely sad and the house felt empty. I’m still adjusting to it being just me and my mom because I have been getting a lot of sleep anxiety, mainly when I’m home alone. Last week my mom was gone the whole week and it was absolute hell for me. I would take my melatonin pills so I could knock out around 10. The problem with me is that I get scared with noises in my house , maybe it’s because I’ve seen too many scary movies. But the point is when I start hearing noises I start to freak out and then it just spirals out of control. One night I went to sleep crying because I was so scared which is sad because I literally had checked all the doors multiple times and I even lock my bedroom door at night. I don’t know what’s been going on but when my mom is home I’m not as scared and can fall asleep regularly but I still will probably need melatonin.

That was a lot. But here’s some good news ! I am a house owner ! Now it’s the house we’ve lived in before but that place is in my name now. Honestly the process wasn’t that fun but is it ever really ? It was so stressful and the way it was brought about to me. We were renting my house for the past 9 years and our landlord decided she wanted to sell it. And so it was kind of a buy the house or move out situation. It really put a dent in my own plans of getting a first house so processing the thought of buying a house I didn’t really want was a hard to swallow pill. But at the end of the day it’s best for me and my mom now. And I look forward to seeing all the benefits of home owning aka getting hella tax refunds next year!

After all the weight gain from 2020 it didn’t stop in 2021. But this year I’m trying again. I feel like I’ve made so many posts about me going on another weight loss journey and I’m really trying to do thing differently and so far it seems to be working because I’ve lost 15 lbs for the year already (3 months in) the biggest thing I’m working on is sugar and health choices. I have tremendously cut back on my sugar intake - sugar free drinks, alternatives. And yes I know sometimes it may still be bad for you but isn’t everything bad for you when you consume too much of it. But yeah I’ve pretty much cut back on sugar. I’ve been trying to drink more water and I think I’ve been doing really good at that. The way I used to drink juice and soda is how I drink water now which is great because I drink soda like not even once a week anymore and I’ll maybe have zero sugar drinks once a week. I am drinking more coffee now but I always use like sweet n low and only one packet so I’m not going overboard. And the second thing I’ve been working on is making healthy choices. I try to eat as healthy as I can when I can. So when I go out on dates or eat out I just try to see what would the best option be for me and so far it seems to be working. I truly hope that whenever I come back here there’s been more improvements.

Saving the best for last -my relationship. Each day it grows and grows. I feel like the pandemic help put a lot of things into perspective. Especially what we want for our future. I feel great that I can be able to finally discuss these things with him because it was pretty taboo before. Our goal is to hopefully find a house sometime next year. Hoping for a marriage next year too but we shall see about that one. I mean I’ve put it all out there on the table so the ball is in his court now. I love discussing my future with him - where are we going to live, how will we raise our kids, who’s doing what chores in the house. It’s fun because I know that soon enough my hopes and dreams will come true.

Til next time,

Robin 💕

#03142022

Words

Words hurt. Words hurt even more when they come from those closest to you. The ones who are supposed to love and protect you. They choose these words to try and motivate you to change, not knowing the pain they will bring. I am the type of person who will forgive but never forget. I never forget the words people use to hurt me whether they know it or not. It stays embedded in my brain like tattoos. Words that bring tears to my eyes. I cry when I am alone wondering when will I feel whole again. Oh how I wish you would see. The pain you inflict on me. These insecurities run deep. Just some late night thoughts

Do you ever feel like?

Random fact but i got a new keyboard for my iPad and i freaking love it omg. I wish I would have bought this a long time ago. So i figured the best was to get acclimated is to create a blog post. Where i can use lots of typing skills.... anyways.

Do you ever feel like you’re rushing into things? Sometimes i feel like i have been so focused on my future lately i forget to just stop and enjoy what’s currently around me. I think this is mainly for my current work situation. I love my job and my position don’t get me wrong but I am just so focused on the next position that I want to get. I think it’s because I know this position will really set me up not only in my career advancement but just life in general because it definitely makes good money. But I know that I can’t move up until I work my ass off and really own my position. I guess this can be somewhat a good thing too because I have goals and aspirations? Who knows but sometimes I just think about wow I can’t wait for what’s next but I really should be enjoying what’s now and the position I have.

Okay that’s all the typing I have for now. Because I really don’t have anything else to say but I am just enjoying the sounds of the typing *ASMR*

#04292021

Journey Pt. 4

I took a nap this evening now I’m wide awake with nothing to do. So let’s see the last we saw I got a new job at a healthcare companyAnd I still work there lol that’s surprising for me since ive been moving jobs for so long. But this the one ! I love my job so much and I only want to go up from there. And so far I have. When I first started I was working as a temp admin. And eventually after a year they made me full time. And the in 2020 I got a new position as a different admin in infection prevention. Which was also awesome and then COVID hit so I was working from home. Working from home was great but it did not challenge me enough and so I got bored of my position real quick. Since I was in infection prevention I started learning the ways and thought I could have a future in this department. So I kept my eye out on the analyst positions in other medical centers. And there were some positions potentially opening and some already opening but I wasn’t ready for certain commutes. But everything happens for a reason I believe. Well a position finally opened up in west la for a senior analyst position and I knew it was time. I knew the director well so when I reached out to her wanting to apply she was soo happy and I felt the same way. It was kinda like I was a shoe in lowkey. So of course I got it and I’ve been there for about 5 months and it has been amazing! I’ve been learning sooooo much and the team I have is just too good to be true. We really mesh well and I am so connected with them which makes coming to work so much easier. Now that I am an analyst my next step is to eventually become a infection preventionist. That one will definitely take way more time but I am determined to make it happen. I can honestly say I love my job so much. I love where I work and I just can’t wait to continue watching myself grow with this company

#04202021

Oh, it’s my life! Don’t you forget this decade

So, how did this decade go for me? Well, I graduated high school in 2011, with the hopes to become a nurse from MSMC *spoiler alert, that didn’t happen LMFAO* I realized before my first semester of college that was not the route for me. So I moved to LAVC and LAMC, transferred to CSUN in 2015 for Cinema and TV Arts in Electronic Media Management. It’s funny because people would ask me what I wanted to do after, and I had no idea I just said I wanted to be in the media *that should have been my red flag for not knowing* Anyways, I squeezed in 33 units that just so I could graduate in 2016 with all my friends. But I still had no idea what I wanted to do with my career. So when I graduated in 2016, I was on the hunt! Looking for any type of job in the media industry. I’m sure I sent out a thousand applications *not joking* I thought I found something in 2018 but 3 months later it was a quit or potentially be fired situation, so I quit. Not knowing what the heck was going to happen after. At this point in the decade, this was my low point. I didn’t know what to do next or where I would go. Thankfully I was on and off with La-Z-Boy since 2013 so they took me back and gave me the chance to figure out what to do next. So I was back on the hunt again, at this point I was just looking for jobs that made good money. I sent out my resume to anyone and anywhere they would take it. And by luck, a temp. agency reached out to me to see if I was interested in working as an admin in Pasadena. When I told them the travel was not a problem for me, they told me the job I was interviewing with a healthcare company and I was like oh snap I definitely want this job! I was so blessed to get this job, I had an amazing boss and being involved in their meetings made me realize that I love it here and I wanted to work on what I can do to stay here and grow with the company. Which gave me the idea to go back to school and get my Master’s degree *if you know me, then you know I hated school and after I got my Bachelors I SWORE I was never going to go back to school* SIKE never say never… This year was crazy because I got a promotion right before the year ended and I’ve been going ham back in school, every week it’s a new paper, new discussions. But I’m almost there, in 10 weeks I will have a degree in Healthcare Administration. Next year is all about moving forward. No need to look back because all I need to do is look ahead. This was the biggest learning experience for me. They say that you don’t know success until you’ve had a few failures. If that’s the case my success is on its way.

Here are some other facts of this decade I encountered...

I have stopped aging at 25, so I don’t really know how old I am. At least that's what I tell people.

Unfortunately, I lost 2 of my uncles within a span of 3 months in 2018. This was a tough time for my family and for me especially because I never really experienced death with anyone close to me. It seems so silly to say, but it was a new territory with me, and sometimes I still don’t know how to feel but I know they are my new protectors watching over me from above.

My favorite tv shows. I watch a LOT of tv but Vampire Diaries Game of Thrones changed my life

Concerts I went to: Watch the Throne (2011), On the Run (2014), Ariana Grande (2015), Beyonce Lemonade (2016), DRAKE (2016), The Life of Pablo (2016), Bruno Mars 24K Magic (2017) Multiple YG concerts (2016-2019), DRAKE (2019) I really hope I’m not missing anything, but if I am that probably means it was not memorable enough for me to remember.

And the biggest highlight of the decade is my boyfriend. This year has brought us many trials and tribulations, but I know this is just God’s way of testing how strong we are together, and you know what I think we passed. So I know that anything that comes our way in the future, I know we can handle it. I met Mandy back in 2011, we were basically twitter friends until I told him I had a crush on him back in 2014. Then we went on a little break and officially got together on June 12, 2015. And it has been the best I could ask for. Every year we grow as a couple and I am excited about what is to come for this relationship.

So CHEERS to 2020!

#123119

Journey Pt. 3

Wow have I gone through different journeys this year. So let’s do some back tracking. So I left service king to go to Marketcast and everything was going great in the beginning but it just wasn’t working for me. Soo decided to leave. And this was big for me because I didn’t even have a job yet so I was leaving not knowing what I was going to do. That was scary. So basically I was out of a job for a week and surprisingly I found a job it was an associate producer for a production company. It seemed too good to be true. And you know what ? It was. It ended up being a sales job and I was like ummmm no. Hahahah so I left there and thankfully Lazyboy took me back. But this time they were commissioned and it was cool at first until I wasn’t making commission so my hourly was trash and it wasn’t cutting it for me. So I started looking for another job again. And so I applied anywhere and everywhere. As long as it was more money. And someone from a job agency reached out and told me there was a job opening as an administrative assistant and i was like okay that’s definitely my forte. And then I found out it was for a health care company and I was like I’m there ! Ahahah took about 2 weeks and I got the job ! So I am going into my second month here and things are going great. I love it. And it has opened my eyes to a potential future here. Now I want to get a Masters. It’s amazing how that happened because when I graduated CSUN I told myself I never want to go back to school. But it’s different when you wanna go back for something you want to do. I just want to better myself and my future. So here’s to another journey

#10182018

Life Lately

I usually go on here when things are serious somewhat. Or when I’m just not feeling lazy to type. So every path I take I keep finding myself back to my origins. Now I don’t see myself there forever, but who knows ? Right now i’m just taking one day at a time. I’ve been pretty lowkey lately. Just been keeping to myself or with mandy. And I know thats bad but i’m just trying to work on myself right now, before I kinda get out there in the world again if that makes sense...

#06182018

Journey Pt. 2

It’s funny how life works. One day you’re doing one thing thinking you know where your life is going, then boom things change. So in my previous post I told you guys about my promotion at work. But the funny thing is the next week I got offered a job in the field I went to school for ! And I don’t know if i said this on here before but last time I was in the exact same predicament. So lets start from the beginning: At my current job I got offered a new job at a casting company and I was excited because it was in the entertainment field and it would be a great start for me. So I gave my 2 weeks notice to my job and they convinced me to stay (one big mistake). So the boss filled my head with all these promises and everything, and the young naive girl i was I accepted and withdrew my offer to the casting job. 3 months went by nothing happened. Nothing was happening for me, other than I got a little raise. 6 months went by STILL nothing happened, I didn’t get the promotion she was telling me about and no one was even discussing it with me. So you can imagine how stupid I felt, I was so embarrassed of myself. How could I have been so stupid to give up that offer to stay here and have no changes happen for me. That decision was haunting me since last May. There would be days I would just cry at night because of that decision. I would cry myself to sleep some nights. I would pray to God asking him to give me another chance. I prayed to him promising him that if he gave me the opportunity I would take it. And so finally God gave me a chance, I finally got promoted at my job. I was happy because I was waiting for this for soo long. Things started to fall in place, I had it all planned out. They were going to transfer me to a different store and I was going to move out. But God had another plan for me. So I got my promotion on January 23, and I got a new Job offer February 1. Now here is the backstory of the new job. So I interviewed for this like right after the New Year, I even took a day off for this. When I interviewed with them I thought that it went really well, I was connecting with them and I felt like I could see myself working there. I did the usual weekly followup and she said they would be done interviewing next week. The next week came by and nothing so I figured okay, I obviously didn’t get the job. And I was so sad because I thought this could have been the one. So when I got the promotion I said okay since nothing is happening for me in entertainment, I’ll take what I got. So when she emailed me asking me am I still interested I was literally at a loss for words. I was at a cross road. God put me in the exact same position that happened last year, now it was my time to make the right decision, or at least what I think it is. The first thing I did was call my boyfriend, cause he knew the struggle i’ve been going through about this job. I started crying because I knew what I had to do, I had to take this job. I finally made it ! So I called her and basically said hell fucking yeah I want that job ahahahaah And so I gave my current job my two weeks notice. And he was disappointed especially since I just got the promotion and not only am I turning it down but I’m also quitting. But when I told him it was what I went to school for and that is what I want to pursue he understood why I was doing what I was doing. Even the vice president from my job came to our office just to talk to me because he wanted me to stay as well. I feel bad for leaving them but I need to do what makes me happy. I want to be able to say that I love what I do and right now I hate what I do. Don’t get me wrong I do it well, I just hate it. I even consulted with my mom about this and she told me something that brought me to tears she said “You know I can honestly say I love what I do, I enjoy waking up and going to work, I never miss work unless I need to. And even though I don’t make a lot, this makes me happy and that’s why I do it everyday.” When she said that I was balling like a baby and I knew it’s time for a change. So here I am about to start the last week of my current job. I start my new job after President’s day and I am so excited. It’s going to be my first time commuting in about 7 years (last time was when I went to MSMC my first year of college) It’s slowly hitting me like I’m about to start a new opportunity and I thank God every day for giving me another chance. Now as for moving out, I don’t really know what’s happening there but I’m sure I will find something. God will let me know when it’s time...

Thanks <3

#021018

Journey Pt. 1

The year is so far off to a great start. So where do i start... I’ve been at my current job for 1 year now. and midway through the year our company was being sold so I was looking for a different job because you never know what happens when companies changes names thing like that. So i actually got an offer for a new job and it was in the field of my major. And I accepted. And when I gave my current job my two week notice they tried to keep me of course by saying that they were gonna offer me a new position when the company changes name, and it was a lot of money being offered so naive me of course i said yes and i stayed now the problem was this new position took a while before i could get it. So the new company took over in august and I just got the position in January, so it was 5 months of being in the dark, not knowing when this was going to happen and boy did it take a toll on me. There would be nights I would cry thinking how stupid i was staying here, and I started hating my job for a bit. And then about 2 weeks ago everything started happening for me. So I had this assessment I had to take, and they actually told me the same day that I passed and they wanted me to interview with the higher ups a few days later. I was pretty shocked because for a while now no one was really giving me any info on what was happening, and when this happened i was like holy crap its here. SO i had my interview and i thought they loved me, and so the next day I emailed someone to see how the interview went and she said they loved me and wanted to move forward with my promotion! whatttt i got it !?!?! crazy stuff. so now here we are; I have a week of training here at the end of February, and then I fly out to Texas for 3 weeks to do training. This is so exciting because I’ve been waiting for this so long and now it’s finally here, but tbh I don’t think it will sink in until I’m out in Texas. Now here’s the even more interesting part. My job is gonna transfer me to another shop either in LA or the OC.... which means lots of travel time but I plan on moving out, and my mom is actually kind of okay with it. Now I don’t know where they’re moving me just yet but I’m really excited for this one because it’s a new adventure ! I just hope i’m ready for it.

#01302018

I felt like typing,

So we gon’ type. Topic of the night is me, per usual. Today I went dress shopping tried looking for something to wear for this wedding I have to go to this Saturday. Couldn’t find anything but somehow i ended up with Rihanna’s new Stunna lip paint lol. Side note at Sephora it said I only needed $30 to become VIB Rouge, so thats what made me buy Riri’s lipstick. and then when i bought it, nothing happened. Come to find out, i needed 30$ to keep my VIB status. Well you know what that is false advertisement and for my troubles i should just be Rouge because of my troubles. @sephora . but back to my story, so i couldnt find anything i’m really hoping I find something tomorrow. got a bust day, work, get my brows threaded, get my hair done, look for a dress part 2, go home and get ready to go out with Nichole for her birthday.

That’s all for now.

Posting

because I need to get back into this. I see my old posts and I’m like damn i must have been on my period. Which is true most of the time when I’m depressed talking bout I’m crying and shit. Got some things I wanna start doing again. But thats for another post. I guess this is a reintroduction.

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