#04.26.13

[livingforreals]

115/365

[flameofmist]

Two times in less than a month already.. I'm depressed enough to deal with this, I didn't complain and said anything the first time because I never do, I don't really like to talk about any bad thing that could be happening to me, so if you're really taking the time to read this, I appreciate it, and I'll love you with my whole heart, but I hope you don't waste your time asking me how I am, or why am I like this because I will never say that I'm not okay, or tell you what is currently happening.

But this timeI just wanted to write about it and let go some of these feelings, anyway this is something that will happen to all of us, so it is just normal? But I wouldn't ever feel it in that way.

Since the funeral, to the cementery and till we burying them, it feels so unreal, you can't believe that you're right there, and this is happening, I'm still feeling it, even if I know that it's real and I won't see them anymore as I used to, I'll continue feeling like this is not real.

I cannot imagine what will I do when this happen again with family/people even closer to me, I just want to let go those thoughts, that depress me even more.

I feel really dumb for being this weak in those situations, would rather to be more apathetic.

[ay-usedtoknow]

Magkahawak ang ating kamay at walang kamalay-malay na tinuruan mo ang puso ko na umibig sa iyo ...

Yung nagkaholding hands or nagkadampi lang yung' mga kamay niyo' eh may nafeel ka nang kakaiba agad. Erzeett~

[ay-usedtoknow]

I used to miss you so much, but it never seemed like you missed me. I guess because of that I stopped missing you ~

WAAAA T.T gm ng friend ko ~ asaauuceee! tinamaan ako duuun ahh!