Monday May 23, 2022
It’s been almost two years since I’ve looked at this. I’ve changed a lot, yet I feel as though I am the same person I was when I started this. I learned things about myself, that I suppressed for a long time. I admitted to myself, now I should really tell my family. But that will be a later conversation.
Anyway, I decided to start this blog again while I’m doing summer research. I’ll probably talk about my day or whatever pops into my head. I hope to do a similar pattern, where I do every week day and then group the weekend together.
Today, I started with a meeting with my professor and my partner. My partner seems nice. I’m excited to work with them and see what we come up with together. The time for this project is extremely flexible, so I’m trying to provide myself a bit more structure, so I can actually take this seriously.
I visited my campus job and recommended a book to my favorite co-worker. It made me extremely happy. I never really recommend my favorite things to people, and he seemed really excited to read it. It reminded me of a quote that I heard a while ago. I don’t remember it exactly, but it was about how we are pieces of other people. That our interactions with others help us find who we are. It’s very beautiful, and I wish I can find it. Another time.
I’ve been going around campus by myself, and it’s so strange, because during the semester when I would come back to my room, there would be someone there. It’s so lonely, but I knew this would happen. I feel as though sometimes I am too aware of the consequences and outcomes. Not in a God-like way, but in an apocalyptic way. If that makes sense...
There are many things to look forward to, but i have to pace myself. This year burned me out to oblivion, and that was a terrible experience!
