Pascal Siakam — Toronto Raptors

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Pascal Siakam — Toronto Raptors
before auditions a few days ago :)
So here was my day.
I enrolled myself as an incoming 3rd year medical student today and gone to Chevrolet to check out the Crovette Stingray.
No I’m not buying (yet) I just need to hype myself and have the inspiration to keep studying hard for this year hahahahaha.
It has been over a week since I’ve last seen or talked to you. I hated that a large portion of my life consisted of you. I hate that when I go back to that dreaded apartment, all I can see is your stuff that use to be there. I hate that every time I go back, I try to find some sort of movement or activity as if you were trying to leave me a sign. Like some sort of itch that I can’t reach. I hate that I can’t taste my food or focus on my studies. I hate that I feel the need to be an open book and tell my problems to everybody and that I just don’t give a shit of what they think. I hate that I feel like my time, energy, and money was wasted. Because for the year that we were together, you told me you never loved me.
But it’ll be okay. In time, we’ll both be okay. And aside from all the petty shit and useless fights we had, we had some good times (despite the large stacks of red flags in our relationship). I know we are both better apart. I just wish we could have stopped it sooner and we didn’t end the way we did. High key, I’m sorry you were an asshole and I was oblivious to it. But that’s my fault too so I’ll take the blame for that. Besides that passive aggressive sentence I just wrote, I truly wish you the best. I hope both our hearts amend quickly and you and I could be happy in life and possibly be okay with each other one day. I’ll remember you as a learning experience and I hope you took me one as well. For sure I’ll be careful not to wear my heart on my sleeve so easily again, so thank you for that. Farewell.
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