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[ohlehdewwwit]

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[notababy-babygirl]

Ang sad kasi di ko nasulit ung Holiday. Ang hirap kasi kumilos pag may ibang tao dito sa bahay. Nakakailang. Hahahaha! Tapos nagugutom ako. Hays.

[only-khimmayy]

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[kairosjuly]

Delay

This week will be my first payout in my new job but there had been a slight delay. I was told by my superior to send my invoice earlier since the accounts will be needing my bank details prior to the fund transfer since the money will be transferred internationally. The 30th came but when I checked my online banking app, the amount hasn’t reflected yet. To be honest, I was worried. I didn’t receive any confirmation from the accounts that they have received my invoice document. Although my superior said that as far as he knows it’s fine. I sent another email to the accounts to confirm but I still haven’t received any response from them. I thought to myself, 

“Maybe it was the banking company. Maybe they needed few days to process the fund transfer. (cause you know, banking companies here in PH)”. 

It was few minutes after 5 in the afternoon that I received an email from my boss saying 

“Sorry about the delay – we have just set up a PHP account to make things easiest going forward.Your invoice is being paid today – hopefully it hits your account soon.”.

This email cleared every kind of stuff that I have in mind. At some point I did overthink. Lots of thoughts came into my mind like “Am I really gonna be paid?”, “Did I do something wrong and they won’t gonna pay me? (since I’m a contractor not a regular employee)” etc. Ridiculous me! 

Confirmations for me are very important as I really tend to overthink things. One of my love language is words of affirmation (I think that’s my top love language haha!). I know actions speaks louder than words but in my case I needed to hear words. I believe words can either make or break someone. Not saying any word is another. Although, like closure, words of affirmation/confirmation aren’t always available. I know in my heart that I needed to deal with that reality. Also not everyone will understand my case so I really appreciate those people who, even not in their nature, exert efforts to speak words of affirmation to me. 

Going back to the invoice story. Today, I received an email from a fund transfer service that the company used that my payout should reflect within the day and it did! Hooray! I’m grateful for today that I was also able to pay my bills without worrying about my savings. Oh and by the way, the promised amount from my previous company has also been transferred today (they still have to pay the rest of my backpay in parts though).  

That’s all for today! :D

[usereductoforzombies]

Wooowwww I haven't opened my Tumblr in YEARS

Looking back at all my old posts and it looks like I was constantly depressed and battling anxiety during my days at the retail job

And my heart used to be so broken all the time

WELL

Dear 2015 Me and 2018 Me

Now we have the best bear ever. 🐻💛