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Cranford Park, Hillingdon, London; 8.5.2021

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View towards Heron Trading Estate from Western Avenue, London; 8.5.2021

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“Cat in the square, is peeking out of there, meow meow meow meow, cat in the square!”

Guys, I’ve had this dumb song from one of pep’s toys stuck in my head for what seems like forever now. These toys must drive all parents nuts, no? 🤪

I’ve been riding the struggle bus a bit more lately.. after stopping breastfeeding (which happened recently), of course my calorie burn dipped as a result. I continued eating more or less the same I had been, and I gained about 10 lbs back. Big bummer, big wake-up call. This week I’m getting my momentum and motivation back a little more and it feels good, but it’s annoying to still see 210 on the scale. I was so close to onederland, but I’ll get there again. I will. On the breastfeeding front in general, I feel at peace with my decision to transition him off breast milk and I just about made it to my goal of six months. For exclusive pumping, I feel like that’s a job well done, and I’m happy and grateful I could provide that for him as long as I did.

We've got a couple family things going on that are looming in my mind, a bit like a dark cloud. Brendan's uncle passed away yesterday and we'll be having a memorial service for him this weekend. He was very ill for a very long time. My grandfather was also back in the hospital recently after being diagnosed with cancer not too long ago. He's doing alright, for now. I'm struggling personally with not having had a closer relationship to him since I became an autonomous person, and from what his girlfriend tells me, he feels the same way. Why is it not easier to just pick up the phone and call someone important to you, and to change that relationship? Even though it's never been something we've done, I'm trying to work up the nerve to start now.

I’ve been thinking a lot about the experiential self vs. the narrative self. If you're curious to learn more from the source, check out Daniel Kahneman and his TED Talk on it. For me, I've been living more in my experiential self - the self that wants the immediate happiness or pleasure right away, in the moment - rather than the narrative self - my "remembering" self, the narrative I tell myself about who I am and who I've been. I'm actively trying to focus on getting out of the experiential self so much and getting into my narrative self much more.. I want the narrative I tell myself each night when I'm laying in bed to be positive and reflective of the person I actually want to be. Easier said than done, I suppose, but.. baby steps. Eh?