Haircut ✔️
Amazing meals ✔️
Momming with my smiley babe ✔️
It was quite a social weekend for us: we saw our college friends on Saturday - they all came over to meet pep. They were just obsessed with him and he was such a great sport meeting and hanging with everyone. He’s truly such a happy baby and I’m grateful for his temperament all the time.
On Sunday we went to our friends’ house, a married couple with three kiddos. This was initially a friend of B’s whose family has now become friendly with our family. Our lives are becoming increasingly intertwined with theirs; Brendan is keeping some machinery in their garage and he and the husband of the couple are planning on doing some projects together. The mom has babysat pep a few times. The issue that I’m ruminating over is... that they’re not vaccinated.
If we’re all there outside, I’m less concerned, but she told me yesterday that a few weeks ago, the husband’s brother contracted the delta variant. A few weeks ago. And no one thought to tell us this until now. A few weeks ago was when she was babysitting pep. A few weeks ago would have been a much nicer time to find out about that. I’m annoyed. I’m kicking myself for being so lax about it when we had previously been SO militant and conservative when I was pregnant and when he was super little.
I’m also slightly even more annoyed because I’ve always sensed a certain social discomfort when we visit with them.. a lot of the time it’s B and the husband working together and then me, the mom, and the kids all hanging out. I think I’ve decided that it’s that my personality is far too relaxed for her, so when I don’t have a preference if we stand in the kitchen and chat or sit in the living room and chat, she takes it as me not wanting to be there at all. She made a comment about not being sure “if I even like her” yesterday, and I was like... wut? She also makes comments like “we really need to work on your confidence” and is always aggressively telling me to make a decision - what do I want to do?! Apparently she can never tell, and I guess it bugs her? Idk, guys. I promise I’m fun.
My takeaway on all of this is that I’ve given it many chances and maybe this is just not meant to be right now. With them not being vaccinated on top of everything, I just can’t take the risk. I was more comfortable before because pep was getting antibodies from breast milk. Now that he recently stopped getting them from me, I’m rethinking my approach. Sigh. Who knew we would have to think, and overthink, about all this crazy stuff? Can the world just go back to normal, please?
