#09.09.11

[fucklife-13]

Aber das was keiner weiß ist das ich seit einem halben Jahr nicht mal mehr zu deinem Grab gehen kann!

[officiallyung]

[mediumhigh]

09.09.11

[medicated]

09.09.11

It seems like our new work contrats will be in place by october. My boss already tinkered with our work schedules. Shit's on. If everything about it is true we'll be working the same hours for less money. Took me some effort to do the necessary housework and the laundry done. When the Wife returne from work we took a long afternoon nap. Afterwards we let the rats run around the bathroom. These days i always open thr bathroom door but the gals won't leave the bathroom for a while. Spent te night with Deus Ex: Human Revolution and Space Marine. Both games that are very hard to play. Took me an hour to get trough two rooms without hurting anyone in Deus Ex.

[ricardogdavis]

Day 61 | I Am Appalled

I’ve captured a glimpse of distrust and felt the power of defeat, but I have not fallen. It sickens me to know that I am still here. I am still laying right next you pretending as if it was all a dream. I still whisper, shout, murmur, or just plain out say I love you even more than I did the day before. The problem is that you hurt me. You make me feel like I am wrong for loving you, like it is wrong for having these ride or die feelings, and like being the best you ever can have is as bad a second degree murder. WHAT AM I DOING WRONG? Is loving you not enough? Is being there not enough? Am i not enough? WHAT AM I DOING WRONG? It’s not fair for me to think that every step I take towards you is a mistake. Do I have to tip toe to you so that you won’t hear me? Are there specifics to us? Is there even an us or even a we? When are you going to see or is it me that has much to see? I am appalled.

Day 61 | I Am Appalled