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[pastel-freak-69]

I made fanart for @goddessoftheworld...

[smolbeannzz]

Poor Ralph

[allcontentisunrelated]

Today I learned a hard lesson about laying flat to dry

[0ops0uch]

So update on the situation on my crush so I can make a vent post and have it make sense:

I thought I had fucked things up w her cause things were weird and distant, but now I’m thinking she probably was just unsure of how to be with me given how much closer we got in one night. The past two nights we talked a lot again and joked around and things were really good, at least friendship wise, still don’t think she likes me as more than that, but as long as we can still be close friends I’ll honestly be ecstatic.

The vent post:

Why am I such a little bitch about things? Tonight we talked about hanging out if our mutual friends were doing something and also texted about it trying to figure out if we could get enough people together to make it be a thing. We were updating each other about it all night even though no one else was super interested. So why didn’t I just invite her over to my place? I could’ve totally been like, “hey, do you wanna just hang out here and drink with me and watch something? But I just couldn’t convince myself that she would be into it. I just kept waiting around hoping SHE would text ME something along those lines, when I very well know she’s more shy with me than I am with her, and that she has more reason to be unsure of where I stand than I do of where she does. She literally could have been sitting home considering it. Or not, but if she was I know she wouldn’t have said anything unless I gave more of an indication that that was something I wanted to do. This shit sucks man, I honestly feel like if we have one more night soon where it’s just the two of us hanging out I can get all this shit sorted out and figure out once and for all if there’s something more between us or not, but I just don’t know if that’s gonna happen :(

[0ops0uch]

I really don’t know how but I think I really fucked things up with the girl I like, we hung out spontaneously for a few hours and talked about a lot of deep shit. It felt like it went really well. That night I literally thought to myself, ‘even if this doesn’t go anywhere romantic I think I could be really happy just being closer friends with her, this is really nice’. We were both kinda drunk but not very. Since then she has been a lot more distant than she was before that night and idk, maybe sober the next morning she was uncomfortable with how much she shared with me? Or maybe she finally connected the dots and realized I like her and she is now uncomfortable with me? Idk but I wish we could just still be friends and that I had answers

[0ops0uch]

Ah, Consequences of My Own Actions, fancy seeing you here

[0ops0uch]

Posting this to hold myself accountable: I AM NOT going out tonight. Ideally I would not drink tonight but honestly if I stay home and have a few white claws and watch cartoons as an alternative to going out I’ll take it.

[aidaughter]

Vriska gave me the Big Sad