#1.12.2020

[flowerhope]

Sening you all a big hug and buch of love and light. 💖

[shu-rooq]

Happened today 🌴💚

[puregrief]

I fucking LOVE Miley Cyrus's new album! It's so lit! I LOVE HER!

[lunchcase]

Tim Horton’s French Vanilla Instant Mix, Round 2: me edition

Location: Costco

Price: $9.99 CAD for pack of 30 (half french vanilla / half hot chocolate)

Happy holidays everyone and wishing you the best this festive month (it’s currently December 1st), though this post might not be out until January.

Also this is the same photo as last time because I forgot to take a photo.

Taking heed of my mother’s mistake yesterday, I added less water and more milk. The approximate amount of milk I added in can be measured as thus: a long glooooooooooooooop, and then some.

Grandma: smells really good. The sweet is good. It’s very smooth, but maybe you put too much milk in it, so you’ve covered the coffee taste. Also it’s colder than it should be because the milk you added in is cold. Next time you should taste it first before adding more milk. It’s very smooth though.

Me: it smells really rich this time, or maybe I placebo affected myself with all the milk? Nope, it’s definitely the heated milk in there. Okay, I see (or taste, rather) what my pawpaw means by the milk overtaking the coffee taste. It feels way more milk than it does french vanilla or coffee. You could taste the french vanilla yesterday, but now it’s subdued, battered into submission by the milk. It’s just. French vanilla flavoured milk. Which is comforting! I like it! It’s sweet and smooth like honey milk! But it’s not what you want, I think, from french vanilla cappuccino. If hot FV milk is what I wanted and expected, it would be good. But it isn’t what I wanted or expected. I mourn the loss of french vanilla flavour. 

(The next day, when I was pouring milk, grandma asked if I was making another cup, so she’s clearly interested).

[devonjwerkheiser]

devonwerkharder “been having phone issues so I’ve been MIA • but! • we’ll be listening to @mesayteo new song on Twitch tonight at 6 pm PST • link in bio • smooches • remember how April lasted for two years, can you believe it’s December now?”

[staicyautumn]

flashing lights

[prosy-days]

December 1, 2020 - Day 165

I was feeling tired, but I’m glad that this virtual watercolor class was on the calendar it was great to learn a little more and make something.

[godsnameisjoy]

MISSING

Date: 1 December 2020

Duration: 47 minutes at 10:27 pm

Depth:

Today, the bodily shakes were a lot more than yesterday. That peace which has the power to still the breathing movement, was missing tonight. ‘Shook without respite. The mind would get distracted into a super conscious image, I would bring it back to meditation.

This is a recurring theme of meditation. The attention will get distracted no matter which part of the mind you are with, and your task will continue to be to get the attention back to meditation. Turning one’s attention back to meditation has become effortless now but the initial years were frustrating.

Despite the difference in quality between yesterday’s session and today’s session, the duration of meditation for both nights remains coincidentally the same!