#100: fandom

[sheynondoah]

OH! I also saw that all of the Bellarke Fanfiction Awards are coming out!

I’m so excited to see who won!!

[sheynondoah]

I love how I go from dramatic extremes of: “No I’m absolutely not watching Season 3 of The 100. My stomach drops every time I think about this show,” to “OF COURSE I’M WATCHING SEASON 3! I can get over my problems with the show and I love these character so much I NEED IT!”

So I guess what I’m saying is: I’m insane and I have no idea what I’m doing.

[sheynondoah]

I know it’s awful, but The 100 coming back in the Spring has actually made me want to read fic again. I’ve been avoiding Bellarke fanfiction because it’s been WAY TOO MUCH PAIN. But now, I think I can go back to reading it.

[sheynondoah]

Warning! I’m about to say some unpopular things that I feel horrible about voicing and I should probably delete this before I cry.

I’m actually a little bit relieved that The 100 isn’t coming back until Spring... When I heard iZombie was renewed I had a feeling that The 100 would be bumped to a Spring show... And I know, it’s awful!

But this show gives me so much anxiety and at this point I don’t even know if I’m going to watch Season 3... So I actually appreciate being given some extra time to figure out what I’m doing with this show.

Let me be clear! I love everyone I’ve met through The 100 on tumblr, this has ABSOLUTELY been the best fandom experience I’ve ever had! I don’t want it to go away. I don’t want to lose people. BUT lately I’ve been having a really hard time with some of the things said by professionals involved with the show, and that has me running scared.

The main thing is, I’m not making any decisions right now, I still plan on enjoying all of my AMAZING friends I’ve met and my blog will continue to be mainly dedicated to The 100... I’m just happy to have a little more time to figure some things out.

SORRY I’M AWFUL!

[sheynondoah]

blakesmilitia replied to your post “raven-wick replied to your post “So I haven’t been able to listen to...”

Disney you say? Whatever you do, don't picture Clarke listening to 'I Won't Say I'm In Love' from Hercules with Octavia and as the Muses...

blakesmilitia Oh no!!! I WOULD PAY TO SEE THAT!

[sheynondoah]

raven-wick replied to your post “So I haven’t been able to listen to any Taylor Swift since the Season...”

Every song is a Bellarke song to me. Bellarke has ruined music. Bellarke has ruined my happiness. BELLARKE HAS RUINED MY LIFE. OKAY?

raven-wick I know exactly what you mean!

Listening to music is so hard now! Basically I’ve restricted myself to musicals and Disney Soundtracks. And that’s it!

[sheynondoah]

kay-emm-gee replied to your post:So I haven’t been able to listen to any Taylor...

Hahah oh noooo! I’m sure the excitement of being at the concert will dull the ship feelings a lot - you’ll have fun regardless, I’m betting :)

kay-emm-gee I’m hoping!

I think about a month away from the concert date, I’m just going to listen to NOTHING but Taylor Swift and hopefully I’ll become numb to the shipper feels.

At least that’s my master plan right now.

[sheynondoah]

I’m feeling really sad/upset about Bellarke today... Well always.

I’m hurt and sad so feel free to ignore this. I’m sure I’ll cheer back up later.

I don’t think they are ever going to happen.

I don’t know how I can stick around just to be hurt and mocked all the time.