A Recap of 100 Days of Writing
“All writing is discovering something about who you are” – Shonda Rhimes
I’m really happy with the thousands of pages and handful of projects I was able to write thus far. I wasn’t able to finish everything I started but I feel so productive. And I feel so happy with my writing. It’s really coming along.
Three of my projects are going into the early stages of pre-production (a short film, sketches and a web show). Not only is it happening but I’m working with a female director and a female producer has shown interest in coming on board!
True love was another big one this year. And through my writing and all my inner self-work this year, I found it…. within myself. It’s something that I’m so grateful for. And something I will continue to cultivate. Part of that was cutting communications with all the exs, the players and “fuckboys” in my life.
Around my 70th day of writing, I had an “Aha” moment. I started to see the areas of my heart that need healing. And how the sexual trauma I’ve experienced in the past has in fact colored my entire sexual/romantic life. Even to the point where I was often left feeling unloved and unwanted by men I gave my heart or body to. But now, as I stand in my power and cut all ties to men who don’t deserve my affection, time or attention…I am renewed & refreshed.
Writing for 100 days has helped me realign and refocus my creativity. It’s also helped me work out some really dark shit. It’s changed my life in so many ways. And Shonda is right… but I would tweak the quote to say:
“All writing is discovering something about who you REALLY are.”
And who have I discovered?
It was more a rediscovery…of things I already knew deep down within myself. But it blossoming out to an even powerful understanding and coming out in an even bigger way. So that my power, fierceness and love are shown in all that I do and breathe. It’s about reclaiming your power that you’ve given out to other people or thought you needed to get from other people…and instead standing on your own. Standing in my power is the most freeing thing that I could ever have discovered in the past 100 days. And knowing that these ideas I have when written down have the possibility to move people too. What I’m writing now is coming from a more conscious place. A place that didn’t truly come into it’s own ten or even five years ago. It’s a place that only started to really exist as I matured, healed and went through the experiences that have brought me here. We writers often write from places we know. And that to me has been my strength…that I open myself to writing from places of vulnerability, struggle and growth.
I’m so thankful I’ve had this entire 100 days to get the things I needed to get out…in order to make way for the creative writing I am about to embark on. It’s been a struggle at times to commit to 100 days…especially when men and alcohol were involved. But once I cut both of those things out, I found my groove.
And I love when Shonda Rhimes said, “We’re so conditioned to believe that THAT (having a husband and baby) is the definition of happiness that nobody stops to think that might not be what defines us.” I am reminded every day in NYC that my happiness is a choice that I choose NOW. Currently, happiness is the life I’m living sans children and sans husband. A life that my grandparents, parents and ancestors have worked so hard to give me. A life full of freedoms that I will never take for granted. A life that I love calling my own. And what defines me isn’t anything physical that I have…but what comes from within.
100 days of writing…FUCK YEAH! I did it!















