#100happymoments

[criminis]

Dorm ⭐️✨

[peomsandwords]

Changes are good

Oh how I hate change.

Change makes me feel like I'm not progressing in life because " I should of seen it coming.

Change makes me feel borderline uncomfortable because I don't know what is left of the situation. Is it going to work ?

Change makes me see things differently/ people especially. That the reason why they are doing what they are doing is to empress the new people that are in their environment.

I hate hange because I notice the slightest flaws and don't look forward to days like I used to.

Change is good, right ?

[peomsandwords]

Storytime.

I always thought that alcohol was the answer to my fear of crowds and anxiety. Me feeling on top of the world was something I always yearned for.

I realized that drinking only makes me feel good temporarily and on top of that it makes me more depressed because some of the worst decisions I've ever made happened when I was drunk.

Fast forward to yesterday. I walked into the club with my girls and I started shaking. ( I was sober ) it happens to me a lot when I'm in a crowd. Anxiety kicks in and I look down the whole time. I can't speak because I feel like my throat has a brick in it.

My girl's energy was so genuine and happy that I begin to dance and let go. I felt such relief. I really thought I was the only one in the room and mind you I was sober.

Moral of the Story is,

I'm slowly healing from my own demons and there's nothing more satisfying in the world than knowing that there's no bigger demon that could empower your mental if it's not YOU.

I'm learning to release and let go despite what's around me. I am my own limitation and I need to always be two steps ahead of myself.

[peomsandwords]

Let me find out that ...

Last night my best friend confided in me about something that could potentially ruin her relationship with her sister & I don't know what to do because I LOVE THEM BOTH.

& a guy told me he was going to put a ring on my finger which I found odd because I barely spoke to him the entire night. He said it with so much authority that I just laughed it off and kept moving.

& I also realized that despite everything , I'm in over my head because I'm always finding myself missing my bf, wanting him above all, choosing him over and over again and I'm falling way too in love with him and my cancer ass doesn't know how to speak up and my love language is fucked up because I'm getting distant with him.

ALSO, last night I found out that my dear friend the one who's relationship I cherish the most , is telling people business that he shouldn't be telling and I'm over it.

Despite everything, I am happy. Lol like genuinely happy.

[peomsandwords]

Today is slow but not bad

I realized something though ,

I will never be friends with her again. I'm not interested. It's beyond me how one can be this way but I get it because I used to burn bridges the same way she doesn now & some I really do regret.

[criminis]

#100happymoments moment 30/100 Took some pics downtown

[noshadeatall-blog]

i've never thought i'd be able to see alien '79 on the big screen so now i'm going to talk about it forever

[l-o-t-u-ss-u-t-o-l]

100 happy days

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