#102421

[ashmarie1687]

Sam liking some tweets late night. Both were posted around 9:30pm EST and I screen capped at just after 11:30pm so between 2:30 and 4:30am in the UK. Didn’t reply to draw attention to the fact he was up late? Missed chance for some puns and Sassenach whisky talk? Hm.

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[agatheringofshapes]

A page from the tiny notebook for your morning/evening/wherever the sun is in your sky ✨

[sculksense]

hes plotting

[bling-blings]

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[pasteldangerous]

Words do not come to me.

You ask me to close my eyes. If I close them, the world as it is will be revealed to me.

It is difficult; some days more than others I find my eyes snap open, and closing them once more is akin to climbing a rugged, unforgiving mountain.

There's a hole in the wall. You tell me, as a last-second thought, about the girl who visited you today.

About the girl who visited you yesterday.

About the girl who just happened to be in the area last week.

I bite myself in the vulnerable parts of me. Hard. I claw and I scratch. Sometimes I feel violated. Sometimes I feel as though I am being defiled.

Sometimes I feel like nothing I feel is justified. If I closed my eyes, perhaps the lies would melt away. Perhaps I could see the world for the truth within.

I think about e-mailing a therapist. My pen taps nervously on the journal lying on my lap. Bruises bloom under the skin of a bitten lip, and these fingers seem to end in more wound than nail.

Trust.

Where did mine go?

I talk. You listen. They listen. Nobody listens.

Nobody can hear me. Maybe I don't want them to.

There is a glass bubble in my throat.

I fear if I swallow it down, the pressure will crack it.

Never thought I'd die of a shattered esophagus, but never is a word we're taught to avoid for a reason.

So, there it sits. Patiently complacent. Twiddling its thumbs while I am listened to but not heard. Courteous while I am throwing away the trust I do not have in an attempt to feel connection.

Something.

Anything.

The vulnerable parts of me leak. I am not satisfied. I bite a little harder.

I used to call it commitment issues.

The commitment is fine,

It's the trust I can't seem to find anywhere.

[kinhship]

Movies theater at AMC Braintree

Dune - boring ass movie, slept the way through

Taipei and bubble tea

Quynh, Kathy, Nhung, John

[floralheartsandscars]

i shouldn’t feel this way or be in this situation at 4 months pregnant …